din wana spoil the other blog so decide to come here to blog abt it. haiz... 270306..... dad fetched me to work.. did not mention anything.. around 11plus in the morning... i received a msg saying tat they sent QD to spca.. i was like damn angry....damn sad.... wateva...yet i cant show it during work.... stupid boss still talk to me abt work tis n tat... train me la...tis n tat...i was like.... i reallu very fan he still like tat.. still say can u see u working for me for 10 yrs? over my dead body man.. den i screamed at mum n dad.. they went to bring him back after putting him there. when i went home........i saw qd....so happy.... went inside my room...saw dad took out everything tat i bought for the car.. everything he took out....even the airfreshener... mum din say a word to me... neither did my auntie... i was sad enuff.....frm there i noe they do not wan me anymore.. packed my stuffs....brought qd out.... din noe where to go.. in the end waited for cuifen... she asked my bro come along... brought him food.. hes so poor thing lor.. in the end...i decided to go home.... i told qd lets go home...he was so happy... he din wana go anywhere except his home....my home.. bro talked to dad.....say he n mum dun wana care anymore... jus dun take money frm him can le. i was like,...haiz.....since he wants to make things like tat den fine lor.. poor bro only....but its ok la...i will find a better job... wif better money den i can support him too... yeapz....jus wan to vent my anger on tis. i had enuff of things alrady.. jus when i thot life got better... in the end....tis gotta happen.. all i can say is tat.....my stupid auntie is the one who caused all these.. if tat day she wun ichy hand take qd out...nothing would hav happen.. if tat day i was not tat tired......i wiuld hav look after him.. n NOTHING LIKE TIS WOULD HAV HAPPENED.. i hate it....y mus things end up like tat??????????????? everything tat happen happened already... i cant turn back time.. i cant take back the words ive said..... i wish for a better day.... i will nv let QD go.... for he's like my baby.....my son... i duno wats gonna happen.. i worry tat once i leave my hse they will bring him away.. really scared.. haiz....seeing him like tat really makes my heart hurts like mad... when i brought him down.. its like he refused to move an inch... seems like he thot im gonna bring him somewhere else.... hes oso scared... i noe i called nasty names to my parents.. but then i was jus too angry to tink of anything... forgive me......
but i really dun wan qd to leave... jus when i thot things are getting better between my family.. i nv nv expect it will become so bad..... worst den i ever dreamt in my whole entire life..........
i asked myself....ive nv done anything bad to harm or bring pain to anyone.. but y izit tat heaven mus play such a thing on me????
Y......CAN I HAV THE ANS Y??????????????????? I try to keep myself calm... tink of wat to do.......but seriously....i find no solutions... i really do not noe wat to do man....
finally back to update.. yes....no more sch for me.....heeehee... like finally rite... well.... wana mention something abt fwenship here thou..... tat day went sheesha.....fetched magz they all.... im surprised....mag gave me tis tortoise so cute....heehee.. thanks... take a min to tink abt tis..... how many good fwens u hav??? how many good fwens u hav will remember abt u n ur gf's anni?? how many of them actually thinks of u...when they go out.... how many of them will go buy stuffs for u when they out shopping.... not jus burfdae.....dun even need an ocassion???? no matter the thing is jus something small or wateva.. its the thought tat counts... this shows tat they actually thot of u when they were happily shopping... these are the ppl i call GOOD fwens.....not real fwens but good close fwens... NOT KEEP PUTTING THE "GOOD FWENS" INSIDE THE MOUTH.... BUT ONLY CALLS WHEN THEY NEED MONEY OK?? well...at least i dun hav such "IRONY FWENSHIp" well...but the way they say it.....im surprised i hav such fwens depite wateva they said abt me... yes.... n im very happy abt it....coz y???? i believe not many fwens will go tat extreme to do such things at all.. thank u guys for being my good fwens....... i hate to say tis.... but really....since tat incident......i made another close fwen.... so seriously....im glad tat...it all happened... n we still remain strong together.... ok....im talking rubbish here..... alritez..... on a heavier note....(follow magz)...haha....always lighter note.... neway magz....ur blog very funny...wahahahha..... come on lor... u guys are fucking contridicting... hmmm......seems like maggie dun even hav the rights to say out a word ata ll... nvm...afterall.....u finally get the point tat we do hav our side of story.... did u bother to ask??? sorry but i dun take u AS A FWEN RIGHT FRM THE START EITHER.... I DUN HAV SUCH ACT-CUTE BITCH AS A FWEN B4..... wahhahahahahhahahahaa........ ure such a beep....wahahahhahahahaha........ouch......does it hurt????? its alrite since u are the one who say everyone has the right to blog... wahahhaa.......pls dun contridict urself any longer...it makes me laugh.... maybe i shld get the actress out n make her talk.. now not pissed wif anyone else but her only.. like come on lor.....shes the one who spread duno wat shit to u both.. say we treat her like not human???? den how come i c tat she's still living in tis world?? tat means all along she's been so fake.. the best part i cant stand is tat.. she can still go out wif maggie.....AS THOU NOTHING HAS HAPPENED.... or rather....THE WHOLE THING HAS NOTHING TO DO WIF HER.. like wat the fuck is tat???? i mean.....forget it....no wonder i c no improvements in her.. but fine tat shes like tat la.... well....BUT THESE ASS ARE REALLY SUPER CONTRIDICTING.... THEY WRITE AS THOU THEY HATE MAGZ SO MUCH.. THE NEXT THING THEY MSG HER N I DUNO IS HOPING THEY GET TOGETHER AGAIN OR WATEVA LA.. I MEAN....U HAD MADE THINGS TIS FAR...U SHLD HAV EXPECTED ALL THESE... Y....U STILL NEED HER AS A FWEN COZ ONE DAY WHEN U NEED CASH U CAN ASK FRM HER???? wateva la... like pls lor....hope tis thing quieten down?????? i saw the msg u sent her... like pls....u are the one who made tis thing big hor....HARLOW....GET IT ST8 INTO UR PEA BRAINS MAN... wat u trying to say???? y??? coz magz blog hurt u alot?????? den like did u bother to think a sec b4 u blog??? fuck off la...u guys are so contridicting it makes magz so confused of wateva shit u guys wan frm her... we nv stop her frm anything between u guys... like finally their fwen agrees tat its not us who tag... like pls la....do we even noe tat u SLP AROUND????? SORRY LOR WE NOT EVEN UR FWENS...Y WE BOTHER IF U SLP AROUND...FUCK AROUND???? n ur fwen oso very contridicting......say aids la...i soooo feel like laughing..? tat totally shows how childish u are....serious... ur every word is like a child entertainment.....wahahahhaa.... tis totally dun make sense lor.. wana accuse ppl in the end.......u bang urself.. go take a look la.... hmmm.......i duno wat to write le la.. i blog for the sake of blogging...coz they wana noe wat underhands i do.. so im jus showing lor... tats abt it le la...nothing much to blog le... nobody will noe wat will happen next time..... but U GUYS WILL SURELY THINK NEXT TIME TAT WATEVA U ALL ARE DOING NOW.. U WILL FIND IT STUPID N SILLY...WAHAHHAHA... maybe not to the actress.... coz for like 2yrs after she leaves....shes still the same......ever so childish.. no wonder she nv gets attached...wahahhahahaa.. tats bad.....but sorry......i cant stand ur mouth..
its rather sad to noe tat tis blog is only for me to say ppl.. its bad...but yeapz.. alritez...shall start...since magz already wrote it in her blog.. u guys can go ahead to c n noe better of the situation... many judge ppl by the way they talk...the way they dress.. the way they bring out themselves.. some jus cant get it or accept the facts of others.... to the extend....."see no open" they feel tat tat particular fwen tat they hav can only...or solely theirs only... its hard to get by wat im trying to bring across???? neway.... i seriously......dun understand y they gotta make SUCH A DAMN BIG FUSS OVER A SMALL THING.. seriously??? do u noe wat it actually started wif??? ohoh...jus a hp bill rite??? in the 1st placce....she was jus being nice help her sign.. in the end..she ends up with so many letters keep coming.. coz ur 'GOOD' FWEN dun wana pay up... ACTUALLY I WANA SAY SOMETHNG..IF U GUYS SAY URE HER 'BEST' FWENS... den how come i dun c it tat u help her pay finish so tat she wun kena so much frm me??? nvm...u guys dun wana help her fine...but do u all have to poke ur ass inside tis thing??? pot calling the kettle black...come on....LIKE WHOSE THE MORE KPO ONE HERE? next...fine tat tis thing happened...its alrite.....but tat was like chinese new yr.. until now u all still 'c no open'?? like wat the hell??? its alrite u call us names la...tis la tat la... next...stop saying we break ppl fwenship can??? like how childish tis sentence is??????? PRI 1 KID: U TAKE MY PENCIL...I DUN WAN FRIEND U ALREADY... pls lor...even my pri6 cousin dun say such things anymore.. no no...get tis st8 INTO UR DAMN BRAINS CAN... 1stly....we did not break anyone's fwenship.. 2ndly.....if u say us until we're not human already...we left wif only bad points kinda person.. n such bad ppl can even break ur fwenship up... den wat kinda fwenship was tat??? was it built on air? tat we jus need to blow softly n it will break???? remember very clearly wat kinda ppl u say us till.... den if such bad ppl can do such things.. how abt the rest????? does all these make sense to u???? wa...den i tink nana is doing a very good job since she's such an angel...n we're like the devil... den i cant imagine those good ppl wat they can do to make things even worst... if u really treasured tis whole fwenship wif magz... how come only WHEN U NEED THE DAMN CASH DEN U CALL HER N ASK HER TO LEND IT TO U???? tis is called the fwenship u wanted?????? well....den all i can say is tat....ur fwenship is not even strong......NOT AT ALL... i mean...afterall i cant make everyone like us.....unlike u ppl.. n jus in case u guys keep ASSUMING tat its our fwens who tag??? come on...my fwens are all mature ppl...they hav better things to do... but its up to u guys to tink la...maybe in ur heart u dun tink tat u hav other ppl who dislike u guyss?? i duno but i guess its preety obvious tat its not us...coz talkin abt bf la...slping around la... wateva not....pls...all these we dun even noe abt u guys.. wahahhaa.....but it was good entertainment i mus say.. N PLS...WHO would wana c ur face too??? magz cant eat tat day after she c ur face tat appear to her twice in a day.. gosh.... say as thou ppl will go look for u la....find u la... come on man....tink they hav betterthings to do den to go look for u lor. n pls...as thou i wan to c u meh....I WONDER WATS NECESSARY... ??? no necessary at all......so.... PLS LA...DUN WANA C UR FACE OSO LOR.. jus like u dun wan to c us....we oso dun wana c urs.. so stop saying as thou we dying to c ur DAMN face. so....i wonder things hav quieten down....maybe they realised its all so childish la.. or maybe they finally get it tat they got betrayed by the one they wanted to help???? i duno but i find it real real stupid....hope they get it... ok....so now...yes...to the most kpo one.. the one which we did not even c her face or wateva for so ooo damn long... we did not do anything direct or indirect affected to her... but she came up wif the most overboard stuffs....calling us names n wateva not... yes...to her... i find u real stupid.....yes...u may feel good after helping ur fwen defend la... say tis say tat.... but did ur fwen say a word of thank u or anything?? or did she even tell u wat she told magz??? i duno la...but i remembered very clearly tat she mentioned something like...... 'i duno anything la...u guys go settle it among urself " like she has nothing to do wif tis thing already... of course she dun....coz she can even go out wif magz....happily... dun mention anything abt tis whole thing....n not a word of helpin u guys patch up... imagine doing all these stuffs n later on happily go out wif magz n hav dinner talk the talk .... laugh the laugh???? its alrite u tink likewise...but its wat i feel n we find it damn irony.. no la...alot of things tat u guys say r really contridicting only...jus tat its been ages since i remember ...nono less den 1 week...but i cleanly forgotten abt it.. 'since u wana c wat underhands method i use....now i show u le... even if u guys jus cant let go of tis damn thing...its fine wif us... u can go ahead n write blog rant...bitch....wateva...go ahead... seriously....it was a mistake to let u c us tat day...den everything would not had happened... well....but its part n parcel of life ba... come on lor....we asked maggie to go talk to u de lor.....in the end kena tis kinda shit.... but its fine thou..... honestly..the whole victim is jus poor maggie....haiz......caught inbetween... forget the times c-ing u wanting to buy fag hurry run there to stop u.... gave u some as we had extras....jus being nice...but not even a thank frm u... got EXAM the next day yet i went down to void deck to accompany u.... for almost the whole day....all these are better left forgotten... better stop sayin later they say we wan claim credits...well magz..u started it de.. wahahhaa... but i mus say...when we were those slackin fwens....was really a nice time... i dun deny e fact tat u guys did helped in a way or another... but right frm the start......we din even noe y the sudden change... therefore we nv even mention anything...dun even oe wats going on till we c those faces.... those ranting...it was too suddden.. but its pointless now to say all these when it had got so bad la.. fine i shall stop.... nevertheless.....for all the good times we did been thru together....i'll take wif it... since things got like tat...den jus leave the times back behind us n look forward... hmmm....wat else....i noe i surely missed out some de...but its alrite la.. .since its jus a summary of wat everything tat happened... seriously nothing much to say or rant since wateva happen had happened.....n for tat.. we jus let it past...... the things u said abt tis whole thing....we jus take it n leave wif it.. i mean....we dun stand to gain or lose in anyway... i duno wat im talkin la... but ergh....jus deal wif it.... nothin much i wana blog le......
sorry guys if u totally dun understand wat im trying to say all these.. its really too childish already...no wonder i explain n explain but no one seems to understand... jus pardon me la...i oso duno y i still gotta go thru all these childish stuffs....at my age.. or izit im still childish but i do feel better knowing tat... THEY ARE MORE CHILDISH DEN ME.. WELL..ONE DID ADMITTED SHE IS.. ppl who noe me...noes me for who i am...... dun hav to agree wif wat i say...can jus leave tis blog la....its dead.. but really....its ok wif me if u all duno wat im saying.... i mean tis kinda thing nv happened to u all b4....coz its way too childish.. tell me abt the person who started it... who started the bad words abt us?? in the end.....who did hav the last laugh?? well....i tink we still did.....they bad-mouth abt us.. but in the end..we dun even need to use our bare hands or wateva.. n they got back frm other ppl..... others who cant stand the way they blog the way they are... so its alrite la..but the shu one was kena irony.... makes me suspect wat kinda fwens they hav... but its their problem la...nothing to do wif us anymore.. jus like tat na...."oh...u both go settle it.....has nothing to do wif me..." wahahah...if say like tat can avoid everything.... i wish i could do it oso...wahahahaha... its hard to blog here when its been zillion yrs since i did tat.. but its jus for laughs...... apart frm tat...im finishing my studies soon... yes...finally can take a break.. going overseas for maybe a mth...take a long break.. n gotta start working already... hmmmm......tats abt it.... *to better days ahead* CHEERS....
jus needed to blog here... well.... tell me abt it.. heard sooooo many things abt tat bitch... u 2 are the best partners in the world can ever bring... like wat the fuck.. all the times tat we helped u.. forget it.. all the times tat u did mean things......say fucked up words.... everything jus forget it.. but for now.. i cant imagine...u guys need to use such underhands stuffs to get to the top.. i mean...is there anything tat can actually hold u back??? sorry guys...tis whole thing has nothin to do wif me anymore. but i seriously feel sorry for my x-manager. like fuck off....for being a liar and spread out ppl's personal stuff.. u dun stand to gain frm tat.. who noes...ur husand might do something back to u oso....watch out bitch.. next....ur husband another stupid ass la... already went out for so ooooo god damn many flings....oso duno.. stupid...ur husband everyday wears a green cap rite??? wahahahah... well...it still cant beat tat self claimed 'incredible'... like cant believe ure the world stupidest kid.. wahahahahaha... like wats the point of helping her climb up.... will she give u some moeny?? NO... will she help u climb up? NO... she might even kick u down... stab u zillion times already jus tat u duno.... or izit u jus need a day wif her????? ever considered tat??? aiyo...these 2 is not tat iw ana say them la huh.. but like wat i said...tis is my blog.....my blog.. i hav every rights to say wat i wana say... i noe u guys wun even hav a chance to read it... someone who dun even noe the difference of MSN n MMS... will she noe wat is a blog???? wahahahaha.... ok...i jus came here to vent my anger... i believe i got better... neway....im beginning to c the better of our lifes.. one day we shall hav it all back to u... yes.....everyone agrees......seriously....theres more den 10.. she once said tat...all these things we pointed out to her has nothing to do wif her.. but its the staffs own problem.. den how come i c more than 10ppl complain abt the same thing? i mean....seriously...u shdl do a self-reflection.. but i dun tink u will.....wat a stubbon ass.. yes ppl its childish....y do u tink imstill here? hmmm.... wat for since they did find a backup for themseleves already.. tink abt it... seriously nv expect u all to be like tis.. neverless to say....wass tis all along wif us.... jus tat u keep it inside??? those times tat u cried...who went over to console u?? when u got no plans on christmas... who offered to go over?? when u need ppl last min...who helped u? who will cover up for ur mistakes? who will correct u...without embarrassing u??? who will packet food for u?? in short....who helped u bring up to wat it is today?? yet tis is the kinda thing u get back to ppl.. in ur heart...someday u shall search... afterall....at the end of the day...do u feel good??? if tis is the way u guys do to get higher... i can feel ur pay spent will be so damn dirty.. u guys will nv lift ur head up high again us... y?? coz ure the faker....ur the liar....ur the ever bad guys in town... worst part of all....like wat u will always do.. pretend tat u duno a shit.. sounds familar ar??? 1st was mine...den was na's saying u msg wrong person.. like harlow...will u msg someone in the middle of the nite sayng ur deepest feeling??? wan bluff who.... neway i told na to msg her back ...shit i cant remember... oh....can u like delete my num away...coz i dun wish u to send a wrong emo msg to me anymore... wahahaha...tat one is good rite? in short jus stop acting......still can msg if my xboss is alrite... like come on lor...u can jus lie without blinking... hmmm.. ok la...tink my anger all gone le la.. but serious...i wish she coould c tis.. den she will noe wats wrong.... ok folks... i'll be back...
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Thou we have to be apart...i carry u inside my heart...i love u more than words can say...and in my heart u'll always stay...12/04
if you love someone...set her free...if she comes back...then u noe its meant to be...if she don't...be contented tat it grew in yours...12/04...by carol..
i'll be loving u forever...deep inside my heart u'll leave me never...Even if u took my heart..and tore it apart...i will love u still....FOREVER
It's so hard to say how a love could end this way...the one that used to care for u...jus turns and walks away...n its so hard to find...to leave the pain behind...n all the things u looking for...ur heart cant seem to find...26/04
I will never forget the days we once had...The days when u were everything to me...My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever...But now i realised that was all a big dream...The feelings i have for u will never go...I wish i could take back that one regretful day..The day when i willingly let you slide from my arms...Never did i think of the astonishing pain of regrets....That once i would have to live through...The sight of u in someone else's arms makes my heart shatter into million pieces...I sometimes wonder if u still think of me....Or if to u..i'm jus a face in the crowd...I wish so very much that one day we could hav it all back...But for now, I'll sit here silently.....Remembering all the memories we once shared...Everyday my love grows much stronger...Hoping that one day you will feel the same....AND put BACK the pieces of my BROKEN heart....06/05...
Time will never change the things we've been thru...and afterall we're meant to be...love would bring us back to u n me...if only u could see....120503
baby..give me back my fantasy...e courage tat i need to live..e air tat i breathe....living without u..my world's become so empty...days r so cold n lonely...n each nite i taste...
THE PUREST OF PAIN
Baby coz u dunno how i feel....living my life without u..and u dunno what its lyk...loving u all this time...i give u all my love, heart and soul....risking it all on a chance...and now when i need u the most...u dunno
Can we go back to the days our love was strong...Can u tell me how a perfect love goes wrong.....Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way it used to be....Oh god give me a reason...i'm down on bended knees..
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but how you can learn from them..170603
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it...180603
if i could exchange all my happiness for a single moment wif u...if i could reach out and touch my princess only a second or 2..the choice would hav been easy...coz the only thing i'll ever do...is staring into emptiness and thinking of u...12aug03
i'm thinking of u....and wondering if u ever think of me...14aug03...
you don't know what you mean to me. no matter what i do, all i think about is you. i simply jus can't forget all tat happens...u'll stay in my memories...forever..6oCt
i din noe u meant so much to me...i wish time could stop at tat moment...tat its only a world of u n me..wif no one else to bother...yet i wish we last...will i hav a chance lyk tis again???...wed
ai zhen de shi yao yong qi, que mian dui liu yan fei yu, zhi yao ni yi ke yan sheng ken ding, wo de ai jiu you yi yi.wo meng dou shi yao yong qi que xiang xing hui zai yi qi. ru guo wo de jian qiang ren xin hui bu xiao xing shang hai le ni, ni neng bu neng wen rou ti xin, wo sui ran xin tai ji, ken hai pai shi que ni...30oCt
