jus got home..
damn fucking pissed off.
went to pasir ris...
actually din wana go....but gotta go check out the thing for them..
so ya...jus went...if not i DIE oso dun wan go de lor..
kaoz..
made dad come down to book coz they wan the face of tat card-holder..
lyk i dun look lyk my dad meh???
wateva la...used his card to pay...keep..."cry father cry mother"..
eee...wateva la...den so pai say lor....coz saw some of my cadets den ya..
wateva la...as thou i care..
so long as its settled...
ya..
din hav the mood to study at all la..
was actually all ok de.
den bloody hell......
1st saw rae.....she chio can????
haha...she huged me wor..
den ya..she was wif tat bitch la..
den jus wateva..
den later saw them again..
was wif hui..
they give alot of stup comments..
fuck it lor..i never even say anything..
fuck la.....so childish..
pls lor..i nv even do anything..
wat the fuck la..
on the account they tallk to hui k...
i dun say anything..
yet u all...kaoz..
wateva lor.
not as if......shar...aiyah..wateva la.
jealous den say la...
hahaha...o well...
was on the fone wif shar..she called after her movie..
den she talked to me..
tell me cool down al..
haha...she say...let them be la.
they must be jealous of u.
wahahhahahaa.......
wahahahaha.....too bad yea yea???
come la...eee.....i den dun wan ar...
aiyah...too bad..she say i mature le..
so ya..she noe i wun..
hehee.....did she jus made my day????
hmm..
den lyk tat la..
ate kfc....hmm.....sad to say.....no memories..
maybe i'm mean..
told hui abt everything..
wateva la..
cheryl was there too.....jojo n yang..
wa...everyone keep disappearing....
aiyo...
den ya...saw tat trevor....wif tis sac girl la.
the one i used to say she's not bad...
wahahhahahaa....ya...
wateva la...no mood at all..
she nv at all....haiz...i wish i wish....
tml...i tink i really cannot stay at home de lor..
i need to go out le..
if not i really kena depression..
mus go c the doc le..
haiz...i duno wat to do..
to say now la..
u hot.....sometimes cold..
wat u expect me to do....
i dun wan carry on lyk tat le la..
wat for..
i am willing and prepared to wait...
but do we have a future ahead?
questions that i have in mind
have no answers i can find
so once again i can only say
let time tell if we have the fate..
to be the best together...
its hard for me to love u....when u wun love me afterall...
hmmm.......waited so long to come home..
jus to come online.....vent all my anger..
wanted to talk to u..
yet u jus tua me lyk tat..
haiz....do u noe tat...wateva things come to me..
the 1st i wana share...is wif u???
haiz....too bad u dun even noe u exist..
haiz.....wateva la..
ok...but tink i'm feeling better le..
so ya..
hmm....den was feeling better le..
so took bus home...they all took same as me..
hehehe..
was a single deck..
did a very very crazy thing..
hui say can de..
wahahahhaa....ya..went to take tis thing la..
so hard to keep in my bag..
but was so exciting...heng the bus driver behind din c..
wahahhahaa.
.so happy can..
now can paste it in my room..
hahahhaa..
ya..
now i wan to collect it can???
hehehe.
yea yea..
wat else i can say now??
duno la...trying to vent it all out la..
n true enuff its working..
hui say i shld wait..
haiz....the waiting part is killing me la.....
to tink tat......i got a 90% chance tat i'll be waiting in vain????
maybe lyk wat mikko say..
dun jus put urself to one....
wahahhaa.....but u noe i'm not tat kind de lor..
hmm...heard she went to pierce her tongue..
wa kaoz...nv ask me go...i wana c..
wahahhaha..kidding la..
o well..
bi...how ya doing???
fine???hmm....when we going out again?
maybe in times lyk tis...i shld be contented wif wat i hav now..
tat i hav fwens....who always tell me they love me.....*waves*
hehee...thanks goody palz...
but smthing's missing in my life..
yet it seems lyk its impossible tat...
we'll be...
u dun give me the confidence i need...
maybe coz i show as thou i dun...
deep down...inside...
i feel....maybe i shld...
but even if so....u still wun say...
hui....cant believe i'm falling.....someone so shy...
but its the best part of it...wun it??
hehehehehe....
tat makes me treasure her more wun it?????
oh hahahahhaa...
u dun even noe....who u r la..
plainly coz....u simply dun exist..
haiz..
am i jus talking shit..
or am i tinking too much...
wateva it is...u noe who u are...
u noe u're driving me crazy..
yet....u still......
haiz...i noe u wun be mine.....
wun love me even once.....
but every nite...
its really drivin me crazy...
haiz..
ok la..i really fa feng le..
how...someone help me la..
need to get out of tis....real soon..
or i'll die..
i swear.
aiyo....hmm...
tink i shall wake up early tml..
c where i can go..
dun wana rot at home again le..
its driving me nutz..
hmm...
jus went to upload some pics..here hmm..
nothing to do..
woke up by noises again..
fuck it la..
well...
was thinking of her ever since last nite...
n all the way till now...
she suddenly msg..
so happy can???
hmmm...den lyk tat la..
nothing much to say le..
hmm....maybe going out later at nite..
hehe..to study...pure study..
yea yea..
mum's home le..
but ya..too bad..i'm going out again le.
wahhahaa..
jus went down get texas 5..
wahahaha...stupid uncle..dun believe i 19..
kaoz ni ma la.
but he charge me 340 nia.
wahahaha..
k la...
haiz...she nv msg me le.
nvm..
going off soon..
hehe...life is so beautiful..
for all the wonderful memories....i once had..
wif u....yes...only u..
....................................................
my girl....
likes her in miracle perfume...
gosh......melting....
gosh...
i made her angry le..
its killing me..
am totally duno wat to do now.
haiz...
plain sorry does not cure..
haiz..
i'm jus too afraid..
am tinking too much...
haiz....dun wana fall le...
if not...
if its too much for her to take it..
she'd jus leave..
haiz...
sorry...i din mean any harm...
i duno wat can i do to make u happy..
coz u'll never let me noe how u feel...
sorry girl...
i duno wat to say le.....
dun wana put presure on u...
dun wana add to ur problems...
dun wana be a burden to u..
jus wan u to be happy..
jus wan u to feel natural..
jus wan u feel comfortable....
do u noe taT?????
hmmm....jus came back..
xiao hui called....ask me go study..wif her n jojo..
wahahhaa..
ya...den at interchange....saw cui fen...
hahaha...
den ya..
went to bk find them...so cold inside can?
den ya..look lyk an idiot..carrying an umbrella..
hahaa...den ya..
jojo say i more gay-ish...more man le.
wahahaha.....really?
den we 3 din really study..
oh oh oh...
in the afternoon rite..
my uncle suddenly msg me..
tian ar...i passed my advance le can????
wahahahhaha..
how happy is tat lor.
heheheheh....tian ar..
cant wait to book the practical test lor..
wahahaha..
den can drive le..
wulallalallala..
hmm...
ya..continue..
den jojo left..hehe...she oso lyk the hugo intense lor..
damn nice....i like..
ya ya..den ate at s-21..
'things' keep looking at me..
stare wat stare la..
wa kaoz..
den hui was lyk telling me...
she say...ppl always look at her...
den day-dream abt her..
wahahhahaa.....pls lor...
they fantasing ur breast la..
wahahahhahaha....n its true lor..
hui....u always "ying lai" ppl to dream..
aiyah...u too bay-watch le la..
can u pls...go buy a mini-miser?
wahahhahaa....got sell lor..
i go buy for u la..
u need it...if not..ppl will day-dream until saliva all drop..
eee....so er xin..
n ya....keep saying eeee....got it le...
damn..
lyk tat lor..
hahaha.....they say i siao...
keep laughing to my fone..
den always "arm chio"....
smile to myself..
wa lau....
then i jus tell them..
i xin fu de nu ren cannot ar?
wahahhahaahaa..
ya...they all very happy for me..
of course la...
hmm....
hope ni bu hui que de wo heng fan.....
hmm...
but....really...
trying to study now..
but jus cant get damn thing into my head..
hmm...
these few days...out wif mag,cui fen,nat,nana,jolene..they one big group la...
ya....lazy to name la.
den ya...
they been studying....sort of ba..
but me...always there slacking...
no la....half the time i'm lyk half died la...so ya..
hmmm....so nv study much lor..but at least got.....a bit???ya.
hmm...
den ya...decided to really start..
hmmm...
oh oh oh....wana talk abt ytd....
hmm....tue nite....28oct...
went to zouk...wif bi, ko n her fwens..
they were having tis event la...
drag for the day....by the herstory ya...den was lyk....
was quite early la..den bit bored at 1st...
but later when the show started was quite nice lor..
hahaha....ko's fwen was contestant num 7...
wahahaha...
kaszo...tink so...the way u spell her name??
ya..den ya..she reminds me of maggie can?
coz her hair...size all la..
ya ya..mag its a complment k...she's shuai lor..
ya..
den ya...her partner was tis panadol...
wa....so girl de lor..on stage they really look good..
wa....den after tat...when the show finish rite...
they came down find us..at the dance floor rite..
kaoz...tat gay was lyk....damn boyish kind..
wahh...i keep telling bi...izit tat "her" jus now..??
tian ar...so wasted..he's really shuai lor.
wah..
den there i oso saw tis gay...organiser or smthing..
his name is carri ba..duno la.
den he's so cute can? he's wearing tis coolstar shirt ba..
wa..tell u...there ar...got so damn many bungs lor.
wa kaoz....really worst then monks..
but ya la...at least not those kids kind.....
yea yea..
den lyk tat lor...after tat we decided to leave....
dance until sianz le..
den ya..went for supper wif tat panadol....wahaha..n 'her' bf..
tian ar....their world of gays is really so ke ai...
so pure n its lyk...worst den girls lor..
they wink..wine...tian ar..
but lyk those who lyk...gives u the feeling of wanting to protect 'her' kind..
tian ar...k i'm writing too much..
its jus all my thots k....bi..dun go telling ppl ya?
wahahhaha....den was asking her..
if ppl lyk me...lyk gays...
so wat do u call these ppl????
wahahhaha....
i oso duno la..
well....tat was my thots for last nite..
but today...
wulallalalala....
i hav nothing to say..
am so so so.....no comments la
k den....lazy for lyrics today....
jus....u...i miss ya too....
hmm....
trying to ren not to blog..
but ya..
i cant stand it le..
hmm...ya.....
but there's nothing for me to blog la.
so ya..
happy jiu hao le rite...
hmm..
nothing much to say la...really.
okok..today is 29....hmmm...
aiyo.....exams really coming up soon..
better really start now.
okok..tonite..
since i got nothing to do oso la.
wahahahhaa.
ya ya...
thank u....all my fwens...
u noe who u r...
den ya....
nothing else..
hmmm....did something so wrong last nite...
haiz...forgot to delete all my sent msgs..
b4 i changed back the fone wif mum..
hope she dun suspect anything..
or far worst come ask me...
wahahahha..
hmmm..
well....wat can i say abt today????
ok...woke up quite early...
went sentosa wif bi adine miko..
its lyk..i was late..but tat woman bi was later la..
wateva..
tat was lyk 10 le lor...the sun so damn good..
ya...mel couldnt make it...so sad..
haiz.
well...den walk walk...wait for her..
was lyk so damn many many ppl can??
wa...even bus mus wait..everything oso wait wait wait..
kaoz..so fed-up.
ya...
no no.....wait...we took the wrong bus....
den ya...finally made our way there..coz i open my golden mouth ask?
wahahhaha....coz i was so scared i'll miss the sun???
went to tat pawalan beach..or wateva u spell tat.
den planning to tann le...
ya...got few drops of rain..
the next thing i noe....we ran back to the shade..
kaoz...
den up n down for afew times la..
den ya..
suddenly was tannin alone..while they all played ball..
hmmm...they planned to aim on me lor..
kaoz..the next thing i noe....the ball hit my ear...
tat ear lor....kaoz...
st8 away it bleed lor...thanks to who???
TEY BIQIN....kaoz ni ma la..
k la...was pain at 1st la...but later ok le..
aiyah....xiao case..
den ya..
dine was aiming on these 2 girls..
n true enuff they came talk to us can?
ok la..i nv talk much...bi n miko did the talking..
wahahahha....they got the mei li la..
wahaha..got her num can???
she not bad leh...quite cute kind...
wulallalalallaa....
oh oh...talking abt tat...
den bi went to buy ice-cream rite..
the person selling inside tat cart thing...
she say not bad looking..
shar kind...
wahahhahahaa.....
went to take a look can/????hahahahha...
ok ba.....den i said...pls lor....shar where got so skinny...
hahaha..forgot she was wearing one side contacts only..
ahahahhaha..
den ya..the 2 girls left...hmm...
next week we ask them go...den we tann again la???
wan????wahahhahaa...
lorraine.....cannot lyk tat....
me....i'm not tis kinda ppl k.....
wahahahhaa....
wateva..
talked to dine abt my....ya again..
n she said the same thing..
haiz...
i really duno wat to do leh..
ya...den was playing wif sum kids...so ke ai..
den tis uncle suddenly come talk to me..
give me a shocked...ask me...so fast leaving already ar???
pls lor..i tann until so much le...
really lor...the sun was too strong..
so we went in n out...wahahhaa..so funny.
ya...feel tat i din tann much...
den we make our way out....
heard tat (I DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY) song..
oh my tian..jus kept singing..
it always does when i was tinkin of her can??
but haiz...no messages received....haiz....
took pics...haha..so mei..
mikko...hurry upload k..i wan i wan..
den went to harbour front..
made them eat yoshinoya..
oh oh oh...wait...
b4 tat...the bus ride back rite..
wahahhaa...got tis girl i ask adine look..
wa...she power lor..
den she jus sat behind us..
dine trying take pic of her..
wahahhaha..
bi was talking abt her too...
hwa chong rudby leh...
no wonder sia..
wahahhaa..den walking up the bridge rite..
tian ar...she smiled at me can????
wahahhahaha...so happy..
den bi was lyk saying..if she go eat wif us....
den u go talk to her la..
pls lor..i where got do such things le....
pai say la..
wahahahhaa...
n indeed they whole group did..
wahaha..but i nv go talk to them la.
wahaha....
hmmm....the whole day...
xin yang yang de...
do u tink i can ren???
cannot lor..haiz....y is tat so??
hey...i really din noe..u can mean so impt to me leh...
wahhahahhaa...
ya..jus walk walk there..
nothing much to c..
den miko need to leave le...
den bi left wif her..
i din wana go home at 1st..
dine wanted to go queenstown..
so we go there lor..
waited so long for bus...
haha..got 1 msg received...
but ya....haiz...not her...its dad...
ya...walk walk..she wanted to buy tat nike shoe..
ya..its nice...but its not worth it ma..
wahhaha...ask her to buy the converse one.
hahaha..its nice lor..
well...saw few nice shirts..
but i got no money..
haiz...wateva..
feel lyk my taste suddenly change le can??
now i wan get t-shirt those green colour..
wat's up wif green/????hehe..
shall not telll u...
den ya..nothing le la....
oh oh...mel....the ear-ring rite..
kaoz...there oso got sell lor.
jus gues how much izit..
wa kaoz....$3.90 lor..
wa lau...always buy $9..
can buy 3 le leh.
wateva la.
den nothing le la..
took 197 wif dine...
suddenly fone ring wor..
hahahhaa.
ya..
den nothing la...was on the fone all the way home ....almost la.
hmmm...heng was full batt..
wahhahahaha...hehe..
ya..happy happy...
bathed.....ok la..nothing le..
now i'm worried abt mum only..
hope she really dun read them n all tat.
haiz...really hope so mum..
hmmm.....i dun lyk my hair..
feel so ergh.....can it hurry grow?
i miss my last time hair..
haiz.....
oh oh...cui fen cant come online..
aiyo...so ke lian...
haha...study la....
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark
I lay awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me
You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I only got myself to blame.........
will u ever tell me tis part....someday...when i'm really gone?
(chorus)
Why didn't I know
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance
suddenly....i feel lyk giving up.....
suddenly.....u mean so impt to me...
suddenly....i feel i'm happy lyk tat..
suddenly...i feel i'm not...
suddenly....i duno wat to do...
ergh...wateva.....
jus wana be close to u...feel u....hug u.....
can i?
am back..
hmm....where to start..
actually din wana blog but its lyk..
i'm rotting at home lor.
so ya...jus bo bian lor.
well well....
ya..was saying abt tis morning..
haiz....so not used to it..
my alarm din wake me up at all..
so ya..was late for my test..
by the time i got up..
haiz...bo bian gotta take cab le..
kaoz...fucking 14 bucks..
there goes my money ....lyk tat..
n worst part is....
jus go for only less den 1/2 hr??
wat the lor...so fucked up la..
but hehe...
someone say my hair nice wor..
lyk arishi...or how u spell tat??
wooow....
okok...start puking guys...
wateva la...
den ya...went find yizhen....
hehe...nothing much..
saw mel..wahaha...1st time sia...
dun need to call n we'll c each other..
wahahhaa..
ya..went tm bought my converse shoe..
hahaha...decided on it le.
den ya...
signed up to tis maybank card..
haha....we got the couple's card can???
wahahaha...
mel...was tinking ar...
when i was in bus 10..
wahahaha..
if we really celebrate rite....
we tis 31 oct...is our 1yr anniversary le hor???
wahahahhaa...
but lyk so long..
hahaha.....am talking shit...
wateva...
neway mel...
i will de....trying....
ya...nothing much le..
blogging my life away...
talked to jojo...come la..
leave ur big name here la..
at least i noe...u're in my fan club..
wahahhahahaha..
cant get into damn friendster..
kaoz..its lyk...got testi frm pakiam..
wa kaoz..say my voice..
wahahaa...i admit la..
but she say i always alone in nyp???
where got???
i cant stand loneliness de..
hmmm...nothing la...den realised tat wat i wrote for carol was lyk really really damn long..
wahhahaa..sorry la..
hui's keep rushing me for hers...
ask her slowly wait la..
wahahaha..
hmm...wat else to write???
duno la...
haiz...heard sad songs again..
wateva fuck...
jojo..i hate tis...
aiya...jus tell me wat to do...
everyone's saying the same thing..
but ya..i jus cant......
heng i nv go find shar today...
dun wan to..
even mel dun let me....ya...
wahahahahha....fine fine...
hihi to my world...
wahahaha...
hmm....felt so shity today..
went to sch for tis re-test which i nv studied at all..
hope i can at least pass...
coz i did some...ya...cheating...
n mel jus gotta msg msg...all in 1 shot..
kaoz..
neway...
type later la.....go hav lunch..
ciaoz world..
am so fucking pissed wif myself now..
duno wat the hell i'm trying to do.
give me a clue...
tell me i'm not in vain.
everything...
ppl say i need to noe..
as much as i said i dun...
am so super confused..
i'm so tired.....
coz my mind hav been running thru ur everything....
the whole day..
tell me wat i shld do...
life's not easy being lyk tat...
got test coming up...lyk way so much...
got lyk 12 more days....gosh..
give me a clue...
jus give me a clue..
tell me wat ya gonna do..
all these nites am drivin me crazy...
i hav no idea wat to do...
u dun even noe...wats happening....
haiz.....wateva......
ya....next..
u said she got no limits...tat's y ure not talking to her now..
u called me...meaning...u actually feel tat i did not go over???
am tryin not to tink abt it...
but was jus going thru wat i had today...
n thot of it..
hmmm...i duno wat to say thou..
ok...enuff.....
feel lyk such an idiot...
picking up every damn call...once the fone ring..
knowing tat u wun call....yet still tryin my luck...
am taking such a big risk...
maybe i shld jus spare a thot for u....
i had already....
jus tat...
wateva...
neway...tis song is spining...now in my head...wahahha...
spinning....
It's undeniable that we should be together
It's unbelievable, how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don't know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I'm for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal
(Yeah-ah...)
One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
And four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
(Yeah-ah...)
It's so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would've made it very far
'Cause you know you got the keys to my heart
'Cause...
One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
And four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
(Then I'll start back at one)
Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time
One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
And four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
am back...haha...
1st i wana say....
WHO ASK ME GO SCH TODAY????
kaoz...she din even mark attendance lor..
so i went for waT????
kaoz...felt so dumb lor..
1st i went in abt 4.30...
den was bloggin as u can c..
den at 4.50...she said..
ok guys..u can go already...
can do wat u wan..
LYK WAT THE RITE???
kaoz...i make my damn way here..
n ya...
kaoz...feeling so damn angry lor..
haiz..wateva la..
so din noe where i shld go..
took train....decided to meet mel at bugis..
wahahaha..
ya..was talking on the fone wif hong han den..
hahaha...keep asking her go die la..
pls lor....who ask u.....
fine forget it..
yea yea...den ya...said i'll call her back but i nv..
sorry...u come online i talk to u ya..
hmm...den met them walk walk....they ate..i jus sat..
msging..
wanted to buy tat converse shoe..
1st time i call to ask for opinion..
but ya...kena R..R....R....
fone low batt..
hahaha...guess tat much..
so ya...decided to buy when i'm out another day ba..
coz tat was the last pair..
ya...den jus sat watch them eat...
hmm...heard all the songs very nice....
so sent one over..
kept singing...rachael cant stand it..
pls lor...i always doing such things rite..
oh oh oh...not forgetting...
i saw jasmine the broom.....n jaslyn the white cat..
wahahahahha....joanna's nick to them..
hahaha..ya...
the bro is my bro's fwen????
wat the rite?
ya...den took neo-print..
i insist...coz i cut my hair le ma..
wahahhaa....shuai ge leh..
pls lor....dun puke 1st....hear me talk finish 1st la.
hahahha.
den ya..nothing le..they went for movie.
den ya..me n mel went hunting for..
ya...nothing much le la..
while waiting..
shar called rite.... got a shocked lor..even mel..ya.
hmm....talked to her....
den awhile ask me call her..
kaoz...mine oso not free lor.
wateva la...jus talked shit....
ask me meet her at her hse there...
thou its in the way..
but ya....wateva la....
duno wat she wan oso....
shall not go look for her.....will i???
duno la....sorry not buying for u le....
den ya...
nv went to meet her in the end la..
gues.....aiyah..jus fuck it.
bye..
den ya...make my way home...
took 12....ya.
now...waiting for fone call..
everyone's at home..
so sianz..
tml got test..
n wat am i gonna do after tat???
haiz..wateva la...
nothing to say le..
jus reached sch..
am late...haha..
still take my time to walk in..
hmm....now not even listening to teacher
listening my md...
c i told u i will come sch for nothing again.
haiz..so dun tink i'll be going for nite class...
wahahahaha...coz my fwens are not here..
so sad...
hmmm...o well....
damn i cant read my damn tag..
haiz...maybe shld change to hong han's one..
coz hers can read in sch sia..
wahahahah..
hmm....wateva..
woke up quite early thou today no one called at all..
but ya..couldnt slp..
last nite waited for the soccer match..
den later woke up at lyk 6...
say hi to mum..
n den try went back to slp...
wahahhaha..
woke up at lyk 10plus as usual...
ya..jus msg abit tat's all..
nothing much...
dragged bro down to eat lunch wif me..
I DUN LYK EATING ALONE..
hmm.....feel so lonely wor..
but ya..all the buses taking forever to reach me today..
damn....how i wish i got a car...
den u wun be tired..walking up n down ya?
mel...wat's up tml???
haha...i'll be lyk going for sch for my re-test st8 in the morning..
thou i dun wan to....but since he said can...
den jus might as well..
if not 20% gone wor..
hahaha..ya..
den shld finish b4 10..
den WAT U WAN ME TO DO????
haiz....
today's weather is so damn good...
i wana tann...
hmm....tat's abt it.
i duno wat to say here...
am so restricted...
today i shuai ge can??????wahahahhaa..
but but but..........
i miss my angel.....can???
oh god in heaven...pls hear my prayers....
i miss my angel....
am so bored online...decide to come back here..
to write rubbish...
since ppl love reading my rubbish.....s....hahahaha.
ya ya..
damn....i tink mum read my fone lor..
all my msgs...oh god....
pls dun let her noe anything or say anything...
damn la....but wateva...
she cant do anything....i'm still SINGLE...
wahahhahaha..
ya...cant change tat fact...
yupz...but so long as she dun get the names n person wrong..
thank god..
ya...
told mel abt it le....
everyone's telling me the same thing thou..
hahahaha....wateva..
it takes 2 hands to clap so ya...
dun wana tink so much..
i dun care wat ure tinking..
i'm jus me....doing wat i can..
hmm...
din eat much today...
am lyk so hungry again now..
wahahaha...aiyah..nothing to eat now lor..
hmmm...i'm so worried abt my mum thing...
besides i jus cut my damn hair again...
haiz...am i always tinking too much abt tis???
haiz..wateva la...
han jus told me tat my exams are lyk 14 days???
oh god...i nv even went to count it can???
n it seems lyk...left very little time for me to catch up...EVERYTHING LOR...
die le la..
den everything is study online...n tat damn CMS...is taking forever to load..
kaoz...how to study lyk tat???
surely cannt make it de lor..
haiz...as thou anyone bother...haiz..too bad..i gotta bother....MYSELF K..
wateva wateva....
is there someone out there....
someone who cares for me..
someone..true thru the good and bad times too
is there someone out there.....
is it u???? ok am too lazy to type the whole song out...so there is...
Sitting by the phone
But it's not ringing
Nobody cares
Who am I kiddin'
But I've still got hope (yeah)
See all of my life I've been searching
For a girl to end this yearning
Come now and fulfil my dreams
Maybe 'cos I feel so alone
I ain't got a love to call my own
So I just want to know
Chorus
Is there someone out there?
Someone who cares for me?
Someone through the good and bad times too
Is there someone out there?
Is it you? (x2)
If you're there and if you're listening
If you're the girl that I'll be missing
Then just make your move
Show me, thrill me, don't waste time just tell me, yeah
'Cos you've got nothin' to lose
Don't you know I dreamed of you girl,
The scent of your hair, strawberry lips
Even the perfume you wear
Chorus
Could you be the light of my life
The girl of my dreams
Could this be love and what does love mean?
(Is it you?)
Though nothing's for sure, we might find romance
If you were someone special, then let's take our chance...
....
gosh...i jus broke my last finger nail.....so pain...
cut my hair today...
realised me n han cut the same day today sia..
hahaha...aiyah..but hers....always as thou nv cut at all..
waste money..
hahahhaa..
duno wat shall i say abt today..
hmmm..
dine....u can really read my mind man..
hahaha...
am wondering shall i buy those things she ask me to..
haiz...looks lyk i wun be getting them..
hack...u can jus go off for all u wan...
bye.
nothing much to blog...
wateva..
time will tell...
got match later...i tink i'll be watching..
since tml going sch for lyk only 2 hrs...
haiz..waste my time...rather..
but ya...suan le..
suddenly i feel...
wats the point of blogging..
when i cant write out everything..
haiz.....really dun c the point anymore.....
do wat u deem fit...
hate tis fucking shit...
am fuckin moody now..
i guess i made up my mind....hav i???
duno la...
ok...lets start..
ytd..couldnt slp..
finally i can slp..
ya..ppl start calling in..
shar called st8 in the morning at 10..
lyk wat the..
haiz....ya..talked to her awhile in tat slpy mood..
she sort of expected....DUH rite?
ya..nothing much...nothing to say abt u..
haiz...jus when i wrote all tat crap ytd..
u jus gotta..keep on..
ya..forget it..
wateva..am trying not to bother..
next...woke up n jus slack..
nothing to do...
waited till its time to go for class.
feel lyk i really went to sch for nothin today..
coz i'm always not attending the class..
end up met up wif bi n adine all..
hmmm...
gave her updates..
they both expected rite..
izit tat obvious?????
den y is tat????haiz...suan le..
but ya...they all tink so right lor.
hahaha..
ya...really duno wat to do la..
haiz....den went for lessons..
keep tinking abt wat they said..
trying to slp..
was so damn tired...no no...shld be moody..
duno la...i jus fucking hate tis kinda thing.
n yet..its happening to me...oh god..
(shen ar...jiu jiu wo ba)
haiz..
maybe things shld not happen at all..
i duno wat ure tinking..
n i believe there's no way i will ever noe..
i noe i cant be compared in ur heart....
but i still wish u knew..
everyone's telling me to hack abt shar..
tis kinda thing...seriously...i tried a million times..
i noe how it feels...
i dun expect anything..
so ya..
next ate dinner wif them again..
den went for my advance theroy..
n boy it sux..
wateva la...din even hav the mood to do it.
jus shade anything tat comes to my mind..
sure fail lyk hell..
i duno la..fuck it la....
i........damn the whole thing la.
i wana jus give up..
winnie ask me call her after my test..
n yes i did....
hmm....asked me watch wu jian dao wif her...
coz we watched the 1st one together..
but ya...if it was in the past..
i wuld...but ya...
not convinent to say here la...
tml thing...ya...
fucking mood swings is killing me...
tat i dun even noe..
on my way home....fucking kept my fone..
noeing.....no one will msg...
din wana hope on it too..
leave those.....in memories of me.....
be gone...
got a funny thinking of cuttin my hair..
for smthing different...
coz y?? mood haven been good..
so mus cut a damn moody hair too...
am going crazy.....
crazy over u.....u.....n..... u.......
lyk wat the hell rite..
i jus wrote tat entry..
n next smthing happen..
gosh..
well..after i wrote tat..
i went to grandma hse..
den talk talk play play eat eat..
den ya..was msging..
den suddenly...i thot she will call me wu gui sia..
den c properly....its shar can?
pls lor....i was lyk so determine one min..
n next she jus msg me n call me..
lyk....wat the???wat can i ever do man????
ya..nothing much la..
she jus msg me...
den tell me abt her jeans her shirts..
den ask me go find her next week..
suddenly ask abt my drivin too..
to tink she remember sia..
but ya la...
hmmm....y shld i bother rite?
ya...den we msg again..
ya.....den was waiting for msg..
ya...les called...
nothing le la..den went home.
online...suddenly...cui fen came online.
haha..she's not supposed to one lor.
but she crack her password..
hey...u mus thank me for helping u make ur comp ok k???
hahaha..
den ya...i made hong han angry..
tink tis time she really angry...
oppz...i really duno she will..
ya...han...i'm really sorry la...
u dun angry wif me le ok??
sorry k...
was readin all my previous entries...
realised ur gone?....
ure finally not e 1st i tink of..when i wake up in the morning...
my fwens all...will be celebrating...
for tis day tat is coming....
they hav awaiting for lyk...2yrs???haha..
She's out of my life
She's out of my life
I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life
Verse
She's out of my hands
She's out of my hands
To think for two years that she was here And I took her for granted
I was so cavalier
Now the way that it stands
She's out of my hands
Bridge
So I've learned that love is not possession
And I've learned that love won't wait.....i still tink love gotta wait.... Now I've learned love needs expression
But I learned much too late
Verse
And she's out of my life
Out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life
woke up at lyk 2plus.
got msg at lyk 10 plus.
but continued slping.
until 2...so shuang.
ya..den realised tat all my matches i bought..
oso nv win..
haiz..only got back my 15bucks la.
den ya..
sianz to the max..
suppose go grandma hse...but guess later den go la..
den ya...
wana go buy 4d..but lazy too..
so ya..
am here rotting blogging my life away..
gave my life some thots..
i feel i shld jus give up on tis whole damn world...
argh...wateva la..
if there's a day....i could try live my world for u...
i noe i'll be the world's happiest person...
yet i cant be selfish..n leave the rest so hurt...
i noe its gonna be hard....
poor me am going thru tis all alone...
yet u dun even noe....
oh oh oh....greese got penalty..tat guy kena red card sent off..
hahahaha..
hahaha.....so happy...but i never bet on tat la.
hahaha...wa...they light the red thing..so nice...
den ytd rite..i saw ppl playing the "yan hwa"
kaoz....i oso wan can..
reminds me of last yr my burfdae..
they all were playing...
den we throw it damn high in the sky....n down to the sea...
so nice lor...haiz....i wan to play so badly ytd can...
haha...at the rocks...i was lyk screaming my head off..
thou i tink i can shout louder..
but ya..
hahahha..
its such a good time to ya..
but i lost tat chance...
i miss commanding.....when mag was lyk saying..
later she command.
hahah....tat one mus wait...i go back sch den can..
hahahhaa....i wish i wish..
i feel i did smthing damn damn wrong...
how??its too late now...
shit la....ok...not gonna let myself wrong any further....
if its meant to be..
somehow...i will c it...someday...
oh my tian....nat add me in friendster rite???
hahaha...okok..better dun say anything..
i scared of her can???wahhahahaha..
green tea colour rite????
ok...back..
okok....took cab...at 7 lyk tat..
on my fone coz i scared not enuff batt to last...
got a msg....so damn happy can..
jus made my day....
din study much..
went inside all blank....
kaoz so damn angry wif myself...
regret lyk hell...coz its so damn easy..
its the exact 3 qns lor..
wat the fuck rite??
haiz..nothing to say abt myself man..
wateva la..its over le.
den ya...kena caught for my slippers..
heng i put tat plaster..haha..save my day.
ya..den msg cui fen..
made my way down to find them at pw lib...
den...got mag, cui fen, jolene, nana,han,nat,ong ling..but she left awhile.
den ya...tink they all bull shit de...study abit..den play...
walk up n down so many times..
nv study much one la...hahaha..
kidding guys...
nat....-sorry nv mean u-
woo....i scared of her can???
talked to mag n jolene...
while the rest were duno where???
hahaha...den after we finally wanting to leave
cant decide where to go..
in the end...we really went to east coast park..
lyk wat the rite..
i was made to wear han pink flip flop..
ergh....lyk i look weird rite..
den later nana too..
kaoz...den ya...
cui fen din talk at all..
haiz...duno y...
but later nat mananged to make her smile...hahahaha...
took cab there...was major jam..
so i so good to the uncle..
jus made us drop somewhere..
we walk in..
hahah...ya..
den ya..nana ran after me to pass me money..
lyk dun need rite?
aiyo..
n i saw michelle....wif her shuai ke..cody..
he is damn shuai can????
haha...but charles better la...
den ya..find a place to sit...
nana wan find her...ahem..
den ya..jus sat around.
hmm...dun wana talk abt it le..
damn the 4d la..
was so damn close lor..
both num i bought can?
kaoz...dun say le la..
ya..
wateva la...
christina got bit high..after e33...hahaha.
siao le she talk rubbish..
n maybe coz she finally saw her ahem ba..
ya ya...so siao one can.???aiyo...
but ya...n she duno do wat to my hair...
they all say not nice...
am tinking...my reputation jus let her spoil lyk tat le..haiz...
but nvm la..its ok..
so long as u happy dun cry le k???
ya...
n cui fen...no la...nvm abt ur black face la..
next time mus smile more jiu ke yi le k????
hehe...o well...
hehe...tats abt it..
walked all the way to my sch...blk51..
there to take bus home...as usual we 3 took 31 home..
tat's abt it..
today...the whole day..
i'm lyk a saint..
dun hav to eat...dun hav to slp..
haha...n now i'm gonna tahan until 3....
coz wana watch the match..
can i really take it not???
duno la..tell u all again..
ahhaha..
sometimes ppl tend to do things...so childish...
duno wat the hell they are up to...
like wateva la..as thou we will take it to heart...
but pls la...can mature abit not????kaoz...
i hav no more comments to say abt u le la...
do wat u deem fit la..
tink i'm too tired too le..
wat am i toking abt??
haha...i duno la..hack...
but u sux...coz u chou si chou si chou si le...
hahahaha...
am here....
abt fri???
well...rot at home...han teach me abit on accounts...
she really went to ask her teacher can?
den ya..thanks..
msg all the way....
den went over to pasir ris chalet..
dun really lyk tat fucking bus-stop..
wateva la..hate cheryl's hse to the max.
ya..
alot of ppl i duno coz all cheryl yang's classmate...
den ya..oh oh..only one..rachel rite..
haha..how jiao rite mel???
ya..den got talk awhile to her lor.
tat's abt it..
ate quite alot of food..but..ya.
den joanna chew came too la..
hmm....nothing to say la.
dun wish to..
ya..me n cheryl always together..
den ya..after tat play manjong oso..
hahhaa....
ya...the sound of my hp...was tat msg tone..
hahaha....jus bounce around...
cheryl saw...was wondering...
keep asking...fan si le..
but ya...its ok.
den ya..
played manjong all the way till lyk 6am
in the morning..
den i study abit..
den took cab wif nicky nic to nyp..
hahaha...ya...
blog again....
to be continued....
am here rotting at home again..
wat's new..coz its lyk...
i really dun understand a shit of my accounts..
n the test its lyk...tml..morning??
h,mmm...still tinking shall i go for the chalet.
haiz..duno la...
woke up in the morning...was raining heavily..
wif all the sound...n got me up...
haiz...no messages received today again..
so sad..
was looking at the soccer bets..
haha..so happy...tis weekend can bet alot le.
hahaa....can watch a few matches too....hahaha...
so cool....
well...surfed the net..nothing much..
y do ppl can get such..
yet i'm always stuck here...
i dun get it...
ok...to put my damn pride down n...go after...
i cant do it lor...cant bring myself to follow tat bastard...
haiz....gave it sum thots..
maybe its better to leave now..den its too late..
but its such a pity..
oh...wateva la...
neway realised tat ytd's blog was damn damn long..
haha..sorry guys..u all gotta read so long...
plainly coz i was too bored le..
ya...nothin special online ytd ma...hehe..
o well..
i'm really bored dao ke yi...
hmm...dad got back the (wu jian dao 2)infernal affairs II....
i SO wana watch it lor..
den its lyk...so dark one..all black black one..
so decide to give it a miss...
coz i rather watch it in cinema...
haiz...still remember i watched it wif winnie....
eh...shld be working tat time ba...
oh..talking abt working..
hmm....mel....shall i really go for the interview at centrol?
haiz..i duno leh...not really prepared to work nite-life..
den i cant go online at nite...n all..
haiz...den i'll be missing alot...
den the place all..haiz...no fwens work wif kind..
thou...i'll get to c....ppl...haha...
but u noe i wun ya....
den ya....duno la...not really set on tat..
n dad jus told me...he can intro me to work at sum 2nd-hand car dealer kind..
then...tinking abt it...tat one i really dun mind..
coz is jus do paper work...lyk tat time i did for hui's uncle..
hahaha...so easy..
den on the account tat...by then i'll get my lisence..
den jus por...my dad's fwen abit..
den can drive so many diff kinds of car..
oh gosh...i cant wait..i dun mind..
ok...i'm day-dreaming again..
haiz..dun blame me la...i'm bored dao ke yi le..
hahaha....now spining...-n'sync- its gonna be me...
n u can c me dancing...wahhahaha...
to tink i can still remember the dance step..
i miss my dance partner..
ahhaha....coz she's around my height la.
those i'm wif now..all so tall..how to dance wif me??
hahahaa....
hmm....am dreaming again..
as thou...ok fine..
i'm suppose to give up..
arrrrghhhhhhh.......
its hard not to have anyone on ur mind....
constantly....someone will be on my mind...
even when i'm doing other things..
haiz...wat's wrong...
see i'll give u love...
the kind that u've been dreaming of....
u dun hav to be afraid to fall in love
and i noe u've been hurt in the past..
but if u wan it...here's my heart...NO STRINGS ATTACHED...
am back...
fucking pissed...i swear i gotta write it down..
its lyk...
i duno wat to say abt u la.
kaoz...everytime ppl ask for things....
u always gotta push it to me...as thou i got all the things u need in the world..
i mean lyk..yes even if i do...wat makes u tink i shld lend to UR FWENS???
its not the 1st time already lor...besides..tis time is i really dun hav lor...
n since when i always do such things...kaoz ni ma la.
i fucking hate u lor....wateva la...u're such a pain in the ass...oh fucker jus fuck off la...
get off my sight....honestly....i suddenly feel i dun regret drifting frm u..
hey...to all u hell lots out there..
fwens dun mean a fuck to me..
whoever i choose to be wif...its none of ur business....
so wat if i choose my fwens...i hav the rights to k..
if u ever did me wrong...den...tat's it bitch....
get out of my sight...
arrrr....wateva la..
now all i need is....a beautiful rest...
catch up wif my studies...
get my fucking lisence...
a good tann...
am not gonna tink abt the matters of the heart..
besides...i'm known for being hei xi...black hearted le..
so ya..wats the point...when u jus wun appreciate at all...
i give up le la...
to tink u wun even noe its u..
forget it..
hmm....
u cant lose what u never had
Baby you're so beautiful
And when i'm near you i can't breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants
When she wants it
You're so out of my league
I show you no emotion
Don't let you see what you're doin' to me
I Imagine the two of us together
But I've been livin' in reality
Fear of rejection. Kept my love inside
But time is running out
So damn my foolish pride
I don't care if you think i'm crazy
Doesn't matter if it turns out bad
'cause i've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had
Rules Are made for breakin'
Nothing' ventured nothin' gained
I'll be no worse off than i am right now
And i might never get the chance again
Tried to fight it but it cannot be denied
TOLD MY HEART I DIDN'T WANT U....BUT I LIED
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away then that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye
Here on the outside lookin' in
Don't wanna stay dreamin'
bout what could have been
I need to hear you speak my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames
jus came back ..
mum suddenly wanted to go to marina bay to eat the steamboat..
hmmm..so ya..pei her go lor.
ya..was lyk damn hot n all..
haha..we ta pau the live prawns home.
hehe..
shhhh...
ya...nothing much ate quite long..
smuggle dad in....coz he came only when we abt to leave..
so ya...he went to take sum food to eat too..
i'm lyk damn full lor....n sick of tat place...
so ya....no suggestions to go there again..
for lyk....1 month??
haha..ya....saw tis group of cannt make it bengs la..
wana-be drink beer....fag n all...
wif one gf....but tat guy quite good-looking la..
the fwens all lyk shit..
hahahah..ya..
nothing much le...duno wat to write oso..
tis place getting quite bloody..
so ya...dun wish to write..
ya..
ok la..
nothing much le...
oh oh oh...i lost my spanner ear-ring rite..
so sad can....den i no choice but to use others so tat the hole wun close..
but its lyk.....it cost me $9 lor..
kaoz...now so rush no time to go buy one..
haiz...anyone going tm or something??
can lyk help me buy???
haiz..
tml.....not going to sch...
duno shall i go for the chalet anot..
haiz...i duno la..
if only i noe how to act.....
if only i can jus dun show out..
haiz...
so confusing now...
haiz...got accounts test on sat..
n i really noe nuts abt it..
haiz...die le la..
really lor..
den maybe i shld not go for the chalet too..
but aiyah..i duno la..
so luan....
i duno wat to do to say oso la..
fuck it la..
jus got home...
got lessons st8 in the morning..
heard the alarm but went to off it..
slp abit longer..
heng my ... ... msg me..
den ya...woke me up...hehe..
ya..den rushed to sch....
hmm..stupid dad dun wana fetch me..
kaoz..ya..so tiring on the way there..
msg awhile only..
haiz.den sch was boring..
had a maths test..
i din even noe at all..
my fwen jus copied it for me la..
ya..den nothing le..
went for electronic...den went coffee shop for lunch wif michelle n all..
hmm...its lyk...
today...whole day....no messages received at all..
haiz..so sad..
ya..den went hm...
suddenly heard tat ringtone..ahahaha..
ya..e feelin of u tinkin so much...den ya..
aiyah..cant say out here la.
den ya..so happy..
walked home....frm 38 bus stop..
feeling ridi(retarded)
ahhaha..ya.
now rotting at home..
shar jus called jus now..
haha...sang me a song..
haha...
it shall be the song for the day..
BEN: LOVE LEADS TO LAUGHTER
LOVE LEADS TO PAIN,
WITH YOU BY MY SIDE
I FEEL GOOD TIMES AGAIN.
MARK: NEVER HAVE I FELT
THESE FEELINGS BEFORE,
YOU SHOWED ME THE WORLD
HOW COULD I ASK FOR MORE.
CHRISTIAN: AND ALTHOUGH THERE'S CONFUSION
WE'LL FIND A SOLUTION
TO KEEP MY HEART CLOSE TO YOU.
PAUL: AND I KNOW , YES I KNOW,
IF YOU HOLD ME , BELIEVE ME
I'LL NEVER, NEVER EVER LEAVE.
ALL: AND I KNOW,
THERE IS NOTHING THAT I WOULD NOT DO FOR YOU
FOREVER BE TRUE.
AND I KNOW,
ALTHOUGH TIMES CAN BE HARD
WE WILL SEE IT THROUGH
I'M FOREVER IN LOVE WITH YOU.
BEN: SHOW ME AFFECTION
IN ALL DIFFERENT WAYS
GIVE YOU MY HEART
FOR THE REST OF MY DAYS.
MARK: WITH YOU ALL MY TROUBLES
ARE LEFT FAR BEHIND
LIKE HEAVEN ON EARTH
WHEN I LOOK IN YOUR EYES.
CHRISTIAN: AND ALTHOUGH THERE'S CONFUSION
WE'LL FIND A SOLUTION
TO KEEP MY HEART CLOSE TO YOU.
PAUL: AND I KNOW, YES I KNOW,
IF YOU HOLD ME, BELIEVE ME
I'LL NEVER, NEVER EVER LEAVE.
ALL: AND I KNOW,
THERE IS NOTHING THAT I WOULD NOT DO FOR YOU
FOREVER BE TRUE.
AND I KNOW,
ALTHOUGH TIMES CAN BE HARD
WE WILL SEE IT THROUGH
I'M FOREVER IN LOVE WITH YOU.
CHRISTIAN: NO NEED TO CRY,
I'LL BE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE.
PAUL: LET'S TAKE OUR TIME
LOVE WON'T RUN DRY
IF YOU HOLD ME, BELIEVE ME
I'LL NEVER, NEVER EVER LEAVE.
ALL: AND I KNOW,
THERE IS NOTHING THAT I WOULD NOT DO FOR YOU
FOREVER BE TRUE.
AND I KNOW,
ALTHOUGH TIMES CAN BE HARD
WE WILL SEE IT THROUGH
I'M FOREVER IN LOVE
ALL: AND I KNOW,
THERE IS NOTHING THAT I WOULD NOT DO FOR YOU
PAUL: FOREVER BE TRUE.
AND I KNOW,
BEN: OH I KNOW,
ALTHOUGH TIMES CAN BE HARD
WE WILL SEE IT THROUGH
I'M FOREVER IN LOVE WITH YOU.
today..
woke up early...jus to do something...
wanting to slp...but woke up in the end.
ya..mel called..
but still wanted to slp.
den called her later....meet her.
so went bugis..
dad fetched me there...hehe...
i dun hav to travel rite...
so met her st8 at sim lim
haha..den was early..so went up to c the stuffs first..
ya...bought the cd-rom for bro..
gotta help him install to his damn comp oso..
so lazy..
n y shld i do everything for him?
kaoz..
ya..den was looking the thing for her..
but couldnt find....n was thinking y shld i rite?
haha..but i still did la..
yea..
den over to bugis..
wanted to get all the things i've planned but ya..
tried on the 593 look alike...tian ar..
its really exactly the same lor..as hers...
hehe..i wan.
ya...but nv buy la..
went to eat at the v8 thing..
the baked rice is not bad la.
mel ate the spec..
ya..
quite cheap oso la...considered..
ya...
jus found out....
ya...she really got nice legs....hehe...so mei...oppz...
hmm...back..
den was walking around the edge there...
saw tis shorts damn nice....
haha..jus got it st8 on the spot without thinking man..
hahahah..
its nice...den ya..
bought the hp pouch tat i was eyeing on....long long ago..
mel bought a skirt frm future state...hehe..
was showing her the top tat looked damn nice on her...
too bad mel cant wear it..coz she dun....ya..
nvm...
haha..while she was trying..
she suddenly called can???
i got a shocked man..
ya..jus asked me a few things la..
hmm...ask me y nv go look for her le...
hahaha....y shld i???
ya..den lyk tat le lor.
walk walk...saw tat converse shoe i wanted..
n its on sales lor..
kaoz...then duno get or not..
den jus carried on walking.
den when i decide to walk back n c..
kaoz...the person say dun hav my size..
how can it be lor..??
so angry...i wana go suntec n c can???
i dun believe dun hav lor..
i tink i wan the red one mel....
hehe...
ya...den lyk tat lor..i saw another tat nike shoes i was eyeing on..
hahaha...so mei...i wan tat one can???
ya..den jus walk walk at bugis street lor..
saw the joanne n tat bung frm x-sac la..
den ya....me n mel....still saying..
aiyo...y choose her over vennie rite.
hahahaha..ya..wat's new..
waited to go talk to her...
ya...but still tink leyanne better...cuter...gosh..
ya...wanted to buy tis shirt...20bucks only..
but nv in the end la.
ya...saw the real madrid jersey...so mei..
i wan...but dun hav beckham la.
sianz..den..the england one..coming tml.
haiz..dun even noe when i will go there again..
but i wan leh???how?
haiz..wateva la...
dun hav the time oso man..
well....den jus sit awhile...b4 making our way home..
ya..took 12..
suddenly xiao hui called rite..
ya....
today is cheryl's burfdae..
happy burfdae...
ya..she asked me go her chalet same place..
on fri...but its lyk got test on sat lor...accounting..
sianz ar..
den i tink we all wun slp..
den drink all...hang-over...den how to take test???
duno la..
yizhen say she dun wan go..
haiz...duno wat to say la...
oh oh oh....den its lyk...
called back xiao hui...asked her..
y din she go join the wo cai*6..
the por ba...hahaha....but hers is natural one..
den..hers is bay-watch ma...hahahahaha....
aiyah..she's used to it tat we always say le ba..
hahahaha...ya
den was msging ppl.....all the while..
ya...decide to ya..
stopped at tahan merah..
hmm....din do much la..
not convinent to write oso..
hmm....was having a great time....really..
ya....den nothing much le la..
reached home....
suddenly no mood at all...
now...
really...i duno wat to say la....
haiz....on the bus i tinking..
y always i like de....always wun like me..
i admire the way she love...
but...i dun hav a chance at all....
smthings...jus dun go the way u do...
haiz..i duno wat am i tinking of..
i told myself...nv to be lyk tat bastard..
but i feel lyk..i'm going to be one..
n its hard.....since i've fallen...
haiz..real hard to give up jus lyk tat...
i feel lyk running away..
u make me take away all the pain i've felt for so long..
yet u're the only one tat can brighten up my day...
yet things lyk tat jus gotta happen..
i duno wat to do...or say...to act..
i wish i could tell u how i feel...
if only u exist...
coz i'll never mean a thing in u....
forever it will stay in my heart....unspoken...
what good is a heart
I told you how I felt,
I told you what it meant,
But I still haven't changed your mind,
I know that you're afraid,
You're frightened of the pain,
But you can let down your guard...
Cause when we run, when we hide,
We deny what's inside...
What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it,
What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,
If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl,
If you're not willing to start, what good is a heart?
Don't make the same mistake that people often make,
And miss out on a chance for love,
You've got to make your move, you've got to make it soon,
Cause you're dying inside...
YES, I'M A MAN, BUT I CRY,
I HAVE FEARS, I WONT LIE...
What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it,
What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,
If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl,
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
Come on, babe, you know it, girl,
Anyone who looks can see that I'm right,
There's a chance here, we could take it,
Or regret it for the rest of our lives...
What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it,
What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,
If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl,
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
am lyk still in sch...so sianz..
so tired..so slpy..wana die soon..
hmm..
had such a long day..
jus now went pass tis group of guys..
totally cannot make it at all..
n guess fucking wat they pass remark on me???
butch ar....
den tis guy....damn scronny guy..
was lyk say..butches hav no sense of dressing..
hey...pls lor..ni na bei...
he den cant dress man...kaoz..
still say me???
hmm....i really cannnot dress meh???
y am i doubting myself???oh no no..
no way man...how can i.??
wateva la...
they dun affect me at all la...
i got my angel in my heart..hehe..
wateva.....neway.....
driving totally sux today..
screw up the whole damn thing..
was abt to slp..
hahaha.
den was lyk...heng he pass me lor..
den only to find out later tat i fail my ftt again..
kaoz ni ma..
was lyk damn pissed off wif myself..
coz uncle b4 tat was lyk saying..
can take my practical next week..
dun hav to wait 1 mth can?
den its lyk..y did i screw up the ftt???
haiz...so damn pissed off...
i feel lyk killing myself...
did a punch while walking back to sch..
n now it hurts lyk fcuk..
wat the hell...
got a feeling its turning blue black soon..
haiz..wateva la.
den was late for lesson...
took my time to walk back..
tinking y tis n y tat..
haiz...life jus not going smoothly for me..
haiz..no messages received for the day..
how sad..
got la...frm my mum...hahaha...so?
yea..its ok...dun wana disturb either..
yea...den ya..was late..
was tinking shall i go for my 6.40 nite lesson..
but ya..went to meet bi at mac..
hahha....since i've stayed so long so might as well go la.
den ya..adine cut her hair...damn short can?
yao si ar...haha..
but u opp wif me leh..haha..now i decided to leave it long..
haha...duno is a rush decision or wat??
hahaha...wateva la..
ya...so here i am now.
heng i came...got assignment to do.
haha..really heng sia..
oh wateva la...
taking the fucking ftt again on mon..
pls pray i pass can???
or i fucking hate the damn thing..
ouch...now my hand hurts...
haiz....
in life...u jus gotta accept things tat's not going ur way..
how i wish i'm taking my practical test next week..
then hopefully can get a car...
drive u round...my angel..u there???
ok...am day dreaming again..
but aiyah...no harm...
besides its getting to the end of the sem le..
haha..everybody's partying.....
esp my angel....so ke lian..
awww....i'll pei u ya???
hahhaha...
am i talkin pi to u???
hahaa..wateva...at least it smells better den rubbish hor???
ok..tat's lame to the max..
the song for the day....
if friends r friends forever.....
and friends will not say never
coz the road will not end..
i noe its hard to let u go
in the father's hands we know..
but a lifetimes not to change..
to live as fwens... wat's the title anyone????
hahahhahaa.....dun laugh...
heard tis song in the morning..
haiz..so sad...
such a rainy day...makes me tink of tat day...1yrplus ago...
am surprised i still can remember...
o well...lab work suxs..
later got presentation n i noe nuts..
its driving me crazy...
going for driving later..
everything jus gotta happen today.
how sad izit...mum morning still ask me go cut hair wif her..
i wan to cut too...
haiz..
wateva..
got a morning msg..
u really brighten up my day..
actually din really wana wake up..
but coz wanting to msg her.
so ya...woke up le..
hehe..
oh...u noe who u r...hehe..
ok lla..gotta go le..will be back soon..
hehe...cant wait for my pratical to finish n den can book the test le..
oh hahahahahha..
hwo great is tat..
hahaha...got a shocked man..
haha..din noe i so popular..
so many ppl noe my blog...
the num so huge wor..
o nvm...tat shows i'm popular wor.
hahaha.
yea....was trying to take a nap as i said jus now.
but ya..jus couldnt..
was watching the 5.30 show...laugh my damn head off..
haha..
saw the adver. so decided to hav pizza for dinner..
save me all the trouble of thinkin n all tat..
hahaha...mum allowed..
so went to call..
wulalal....was heaven i tell u..
the durmlets..kaoz...
damn nice lor.
hahahhaa...ya babey..
ok la.
den was msging cui fen..
haha...hey..i waitin for u leh...
when u gonna dian si wo???
hahaha...pengz....
she somemore say cannot too much..
later not enuff to share among her lovers...
oh oh...means got too many le...rite???hahahhaa.
pengz....nvm la..remember to leave some for me can le.
hahaha.
yea yea...ok la..i'm bored...writing rubbish..
hahaha.
xiao hui ask me upload my baby pics all to chatterbox..
say very cute...pls lor...has always been lor...
hahahaha..
hihi...oh gosh..
cant believe wat happening...
haha...was totally bored dao ke yi lor..
den later...got cui pei me talk online..
den suddenly..
recif a msg frm her...
tian ar...
den ya...soon after...cui say she wana go lala land...
so ya..
den shar jus keep msging..
so was jus talking to her...
den later she oso say she wana slp le..
kaoz...y everyone is slping/???
okok..maybe i shall follow my princess.....i shall slp too..
hahahaha..
wateva...
i cant slp lor..
already took a nap jus now...another nap??
gosh..
hahaha....wat's up wif all tat blogging jus now lorraine..
now u so happy le..haha..can go cancel it away ba..
hahaha...it was jus last mon..
when all things happen..
hahahaha...gosh..i did not live the whole of last week in vain...
hahaha....geez..
i can fly to the sky now....hehe...
i love u my princesses.....n nv forgetting my angel..
hehe.
am here so early..
uploaded sum pics...go take a look ya?
here actually still got neo-prints...
haven scan in yet la..hahaha...cant wait...
duno wat to do at home...so sianz..
actually could hav gone to sch..
bt was lyk so damn lazy..
ya..but woke up quite early la...hmm..
ya..u noe y,...
ya....was cravin for kway chap..
dragged dad to interchange.... ate wif me..
but the market one was not open.
damn it...so jus ate some fish stuff..
den ya...dad left le...
i went to library to shit..
haha..bought newpaper read in the meantime..
hmmm....got soccer match..hehe.
on wed....plannin to buy tml...yea yea...
yupz...den nothing much le la..
am feeling abit moody now.
haiz..
whenever i tink abt those..
i jus duno wat the hell i'm trying to be..
i noe its not possible..
in life...y mus there be a before n after??
den if i got to noe u 1st...i believe things will not be lyk tat..
haiz...even if so...i guess...i wun be in ur heart too..
life suxs...as much as i dun wan it to be..
had always thot....
ppl wuld like me for my loyal-ness to shar.....
but now..i din expect me tat i'll fall for someone..for her loyal-ness to other...
kaoz...dun tink u all noe wat i mean..
aiyah...its only for me to noe n for u to find out..
hahaha.....but there's no way any one shld noe abt tis...
A sad thing in life is tat when u meet someone
who means alot to u...in ur heart, only to find out in the end
that it was never meant to be...
n u jus gotta let it go....
do u often regret things u've done??
i do...
hahaha....n its painful to noe the outcome...
den u noe its too late...
coz wat's done cant be undone..
hahahha....wateva....
o...well...i found some lots of ppl in friendster again..
hahaha...o well...they came out tis myspace thing..
hahaha....manda intro it to me..
hahha....she was saying abt shar...
n ya...izit so obvious????haiz..
wateva la..managed to convince her tat i've moved on..
lyk damn long ago???
izit clear enuff???
haiz..wateva la..
n den...fwens prob coming in..
haiz..i dun wish to care le la..
if u noe tat its gonna hurt..yet u still do it..
den wat can i say???
our gang's gonna split sooner or later..
n i dun tink its worth another patch...
jus let all of us....slide to others...
n may our happy memories stay in our hearts...
As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
From whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever...
dun really noe wat to say...
to fwens out there...
okok la....next time i dun write such things le la.
but its lyk..u all noe i write wat i wan there rite..
sometimes write rubbish..
so ya...
hope u all understand....
ya..
ok...tat's abt it...
well..
today ar..
wanted to go bugis..
haha...to get alot alot of stuffs frm there..
wonder when den i got the chance to go man..
ya...
den at 5 lyk tat..
went to tm..
hmm...met cui fen n hong han..
den jus went walk walk...
cui fen's really getting more notti..
n ya...ytd..was talking to her sis can.
ahahha..how funny...
but ya....she's cool man..
hahha..
ya...saw sherilyn....ya..jus smiled at her...
her hair grew alot le.
hmmm....pls lor...i really tink she can make it wat..
better den some....ahem....
hehe...
ya...went get my money frm 4d booth..
hahhaa....kaoz e damn auntie can say..
xiao di...u got 18 not??
hahah...
wateva den..
ya...ate at long john's...
nothing much..
jus talk n talk..
yea....i wish i could tell u how i feel....
but situation always dun allow me..
haiz..
wateva....
i'm falling for someone..
n it feels so right...
yet..the hardest thing is....
our heart's not free...
we're not meant to be..
i guess i'm wrong.....
but...it jus cant fade..
but going deeper..
die le la..
ahhahaha..
oh...wat am i talking abt....
aiyah......all u peps out there..
jus ignore my those words..
wateva...
hahahhaa....back awhile later...
after the conference..
am trying smthing.....
wait ar...
on my comp....din noe y i wuld go listen to those english songs again..
haha...den keep changing the nicks on my msn..
hahaha..got so many lor..duno wat to put..
haiz...
but the songs...haiz..
jus make me tear again..
if only i could sing all to her..
but wuld she care????
what good is a heart?
if ure not gonna use it..
what good is a love?
if ure too scared to choose it..
if ure heart is beating..
den its for a reason....girl..
if ure not willing to start..
what good is a heart
haha...now is code red...
jus now was....boyz II men
den DAmage...
haiz.....den N'sync
98 degrees...
haiz....all the sad songs...
okok...i'm a sad-iss...
make myself feel worst only..
hahaha...if only u knew....
if u take a look at my heart, my soul...
i'm sure u'll be shocked....
jus came back frm pw..
ya..din wana go bath yet....
hahaha...ya...bought soccer..
hehe..tonite can watch...hahaha..cool..
all i need now is chips...hahaha..
yea..
today...
dun really noe wat can i say la..
hmmm.....nothing much.....
i guess....i was wrong...
ya...den....quite ok ba..
1st..they thot i was moody by her..
ya...n she really take all my words as fan pi..
im really not affected by her at all lor..
kaoz..i mean...SERIOUS..
ya...more coz of u lor.
jus tat...nvm...
ya..den nothing le la..
ya...they thot i was moody..
hahah....i was not at all..
i really wun wana go spoil all u all de mood rite???
hahahahaha..
ya...den...played pool...
saw...couple of ppl..
hehee...ya...trina...n all la..
den wat else shall i say..
nothing le..back later...
gotta go bath now....
life suxs.....but it still goes on......
u're my angel.....do u noe tat?????
am so tired now....
well...
woke up damn early today..
din off my fone...
hoping a morning msg...
but ya...she din msg me at all..
kaoz...so bu xi kuan..
yea..
den make my damn way to sch..
hmm..was abit late...for tut...
den when abt to reach my class...
kaoz....mus be someone talking abt me..
i suddenly sneeze..
coz it was so damn loud tat...
the next thing i step into the class..
everyone started laughin...
they all told my lecturer....tat i'm coming le.
hahha..by my voice rite..
hahaha...
ya..nothing much.....tried to pay attention but its not working..
haha..so no use...haiz..
can i make it??i really duno lor..
ya..
ate at coffeeshop..
hehe...thot lyk ya..
but hehe...nvm....still got msg...its her...
den took cab to ssdc..
was too lazy to walk there....
driving was fun today..
hahaa....after so long i get to drive again.
haha....passed all the lessons smoothly..
but was lyk going to slp anytime..
haha...still gotta check tis check tat..
so lazy.
ya....den haven got my results for final yet..
tian ar....can jus let me pass..
i dun wan take it again le ..
coz i wan hurry get my lisense...
hahaha..cant wait...
ya...
den after tat...din noe where to go to..
so took a bus back...
msg her all the way..
haiz......y mus tink i talk as fang pi...
haiz...i mean wat i say k...
forget it...
i shld be zhuang yi oso....hor???
okok..
hmm..den nothing much le..
well..duno wat to say oso...
mel called jus now..
jus to tell me abt joanne n christen....
hahahaa...funny ar..
hmm....allison ask me go sun tann wif her tml...
n den on sun too..
siao ar..hahhaa....
tml...either i rot at home or other plans lor.
not sure..
where are all my fwens???
all died le la..
kaoz..
ya...den lyk tat la...
so sianz...
am bickering wif cui fen now..
how funny..
tink mum mus be tinking i'm starting my nonsense again..
laughin to the comp????
oh hahahhahahaha..
ya....going off le...
wonder shall i go tml?????
am home now...
din go sch today...again..
wat's new rite..
hmmm...well..
woke up quite late..
stup mum wans me eat wif her.....at inter
so ya....was late..
met fwen studied at pw bk...
hmm....as in real study?? cant believe it..
haiz..they really changed bk till lyk i duno wat to say..
haiz....all my memories will be gone..
am so bothered by it..
haiz..wateva....one's gotta move on..
ya....hmm...
den i got a shocked...i saw my cousin..
tian ar...was doing smthing....ya...den...oh my tian..
haiz.....she tell ppl i die le..
haiz...tink oneday shall go visit her...
por her abit...shut her mouth...
den i'm saved...rite?
wat she go tell tonite....die..
haiz...tinking too much la...
tink she wun la..
hmm..i scared...not abit...alot lor.
hahhaa.
yea..wateva...
ya..den did alot of maths today..hahaha..
so surprised man...i can do them..
den ya..was jus talking..
den tempted to play pool...
den ya...haha..hurried go do n play le lor..
ya...msg her....den was msgin all the way la...
suddenly got a msg frm other her..
ahhahah.....tink u all got mixed up le..
hahhaa..den ya..
all tua me....in the end nv msg le..
ya...nvm..den jus walk walk at pw lor..
ate at yoshinoya...hahahhahaha..
so much..cant finish..
den ya...saw serena...
haha..pls lor...so slim le lor..
still say she jus came out frm some slimming center..
pls lor..how i noe abt such things??
haha..maybe shall ask her again.
i oso wan to do some...de-toxicfication thing can?
or wateva u call tat la..
hahahaha....so cool...
but got anyway...can pull my legs longer???
hahhaahaa...
wateva...
ya..went home st8 away came online..
hmmm..duno to ya or not..
so in the end...wateva la.
not convinent to say here la..
hahaha..so ya..
deleted alot of stuffs in my comp...
useless..
haha.ya..den finally went to change my wallpaper...
put the group pic we took at chalet...so nice..
hahhaa.....jus love them all...
o well....when we going out again peps???
hahhaha..yea....
hmm....they were asking me go sun tann at sentosa on sun...
kaoz...shall i go???
den wat am i gonna do on sat???
haiz..duno la...not sure...
so sianz....exams coming n i dun feel the kick at all..
tml..got sch....st8 in the morning...
will u give me morning call tml?????i duno...
ya...den got drivin later lor..
hahaa....looking forward to it..
lyk so long since i went for lessons..
last few le...so ya...
hmm....after tat....duno wat shall i do...
haiz..watva la...
no fwens.....no money.....no talks......no life....totally..
fine wateva..shall not be here....yaking all the way.....haiz...
haiz haiz....
hmm....heard tis song while playing pool.....
wherever you are tonight girl
I'll see you in my dreams
wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me
And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
'Cuz here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more
You'll be here in my heart
Whenever I miss (I miss)
Miss you so much
It's more than I can bear
Now I won't cry (I won't cry)
I'll just close my eyes and know
You'll be there
Your kiss and your touch (kiss and your touch)
I'll never forget
'Cuz your as close as my very next breath
Here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more
You'll be here in my heart
And though we are
(I know we are)
A world apart
I know you'll never be that far (far)
'Cuz here in my heart
There's a pitucre of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more
You'll be here in my heart
back here again...
o well....rushed all the way back home...
pretty fast leh...
she better be honoured..
but dun tink she noes la....
wateva....say she din recif my msg...
aiyah...duno la..
my cui cui went offline le..
hmmm.....girl...dun be sad le k..
everything will come back to its place in time..
yea yea...
was quite pissed off jus now..
but am tinking...y shld i be affected by such....
so ya...hack abt it le lor...ya....
tml....duno shall i go or not...
hmm....going pw..
hehe...anyone wana join me???
hahahah...tinking too much..
life feels so shitty now...
when can i feel so happy lyk tat time again??
haiz....when was i ever happy..
i dun remember tat day..
oh oh...mon ba..hehe..
okok..fine..wateva..
talking shit...shall end now
having lab lesson now....
duno anything at all..so wat's the point of coming to sch lor..
hahaha..
woke up quite late...coz lyk weather so nice rite...hahahha...
slp longer....din eat at all...
before tat..went to meet xiao hui..she passed me stuffs..
she bought me the tennis ball key chain...i love...can?
suddenly am missing the times she nv fail to buy things for me..
thanks...
yea..den smuggle into bi's class to hav a small chat wif her...
saw charles so shuai...ever...
yea yea...my zhou jie lun....hehe..
ya..den was showing adine all...pics...
wat's new rite..i always do tat rite..
hahahahah....
ya....nothing much....
am wondering wat time i'll be back today..
hehhe....
ya....ytd was looking high n low for my scanner plug.....
coz i wana scan pics in ma...
kaoz ni ma.....cant find lor....
ni na bei...when i wan always dun hav one lor..
haiz...shld go sim lim square soon le..
ya...
den was talking to ppl online...
at least i nv make cui cui angry ytd....heng ar....
hahaa...well...was jus chatting wif her la..
ya....morning she msg me too....
managed to talk her thru...
dun worry girl.....
hehe......lyk wat i say...
wat's urs will be urs someday.....
yea....
jus lyk how i console myself..
one shld be contented wif wat she hav.......
hehehe.....tat silly girl..
aawhile will be ok le la....
oppz...y am i typing all these inside...
shit-ty mama....
oh wateva la...am bored dao ke yi......
haiz...my fwens really all died.......aiyo..........
so sad....suddenly feels so alone.
haiz..ytd...on friendster i found charmaine...
how happy is tat...
hhahahha.....
ok la...fone jus rang...damn....was so damn loud..
better go now..tata...
1st..
grandma slpt overnite at my room..
so ya..wanted to write letter..
but cant...
haiz..
was talking to her.....until damn late last nite..
was really very moody...
talking to mel...telling her stuffs..
den next i called her....
she jus made my day.....make me felt better..
tat i din tink abt anything unhappy at all..
thanks....
ya..den very late den slp..
forgot to off my damn fone..
n she gotta msg me....kaoz..
still the timing jus nice to go sch.
haha..but i still din go la...
more coz of my grandma..
so ya..decided to go cycling..
went to east coast find her...
she really st8 away wore those tat we bought...
hahaha......so chio wor...
hmm....gave her letters...tat..i duno if i shld...
accompany her to talk..
bi.....i was really tinking too much jus now..
the one on the fone was her ex-supervier...
hahahha..
well....as expected...i dun tink she'll say anything..
so i guess its the last time i gonna meet up wif her n all tat..
i duno...everyone tells me the same thing..
thou i've heard it for lyk.....how many yrs le...2plus??
but in the end..
i'm still here...
its taking forever...tat i cant make myself go to another.....
haiz....sometimes i do hate myself..
lyk wat if..i actually do like someone else....
yet coz of tis...den...the next thing i noe..she dun like me anymore/??
haiz...but it jus still get back to the same la.
wateva...
i find i spent 300 plus......for tis lesson...
which is totally not worth it at all..
haiz...fine...i guess....i really is..."gan yuan bei pian"
haiz....wateva la..
ya....cycled all the way frm east coast to bedok..
actually din really noe the way.,....
was lyk thinking while riding..
guess i'm such a genius....oh wateva rite..
hahaha.
nothing much..leg very pain...
now....hands are feeling the pull already...
tml...off to sch..
these few days i totally forgotten abt my driving can..
haiz..i duno wat to say man..
no no...mus hurry get my lisence...prove to those...
who look down on me..
ya..get a car.....
hmm...wateva....thinking too much again..
hahahha..
yea...went to read my own blog 1st..when i came online.
hahahhaa..
read the pink one over n over again..
haiz...i dun tink she get it lor..
nvm....
nothing to say...
ergh.....so angry..
cant find the song she sang to me today..
haiz..wateva la..
was reading.....tink everyone read my blog wun get it lor.
coz there's too many shes...
hahahaha...wateva la..
i noe i shldn be writing all these..
haiz...i wish it could make me feel better..
haiz.....jus save me frm all these..
is there a better way to leave?????????
at least i nv drop anymore tears for her...
maybe coz....i'm too used to it le....
honestly....i believe..
there's no way i can lyk...forget abt her..
maybe its gonna take another decade???
oh wateva...
wana put a song but forget it.
ok...actually am lyk totally very busy now..
so many things to do.
came home...1st thing to noe...
grandma's coming my house..
gotta clear all my stuffs to let her slp in my room...
poor me gotta move to bro's room...
but mus hurry make an effort to blog in here..
coz the date today is damn impt.
hahahaha..
well...
in short...
i waited for lyk so damn long for tis day to come..
finally lyk a dream come true..
far more then i expected..
yea...actually wana go to the details....but aiya...
no time...another day ba..
o well....i enjoyed myself.....on my own expenses ba...
to get back tis....i'm quite ok abt it la..
so u ppl stop making me feel worst..
dun worry it will stop real soon....
besides..
i dun wana go on lyk tat ba...
there are so many ppl treating me well...
yet i gotta stuck myself wif tis bitch who...
aiyah....duno wat to say...
i'm jus so speechless lor...
nothing to say la..
besides...i cant say much here...
duno y.....i dun hav the xin to write here oso..
wateva la..
i'll tell slowly ba..
but tis day i'll nv forget..
jus a substitute for ytd.....5thoct ba..
hahahaha...
wateva.....
gosh...i'll be slping at mum's room can???
n today had such a hilarious day.....
wat if i say things...i'm not suppose to???
die..tink i better stay awake man..
hahahhaa....
rayne u tinking too much le la..
hahahahhaa...
pengz...wateva...
somemore i at nite...siao one..
die la...later sudenly shout out her name...will jus faintz...man
ok...out of tis topic...
hmm..nothing to say le la....
jus wondering..
do u really noe.....wat i'm trying to say???????
haha...wat abt today ar???
hmm...the colour for today...
wait..
jus wana say sorry...
i made cui fen pissed off ytd...sorry la...k????
hmm....well...
woke up at lyk....4plus..
haha..not coz i'm a pig or wat..
but ya...my clock din work..
so was lyk..stopped at 10.30..
so wen i wake up n look at the time?
tinking its only 10.30 so went back to slp..
hahaha....den ya..
how dumb of me...wake up so many times how come still 10.30
oh hahahaha..
den walked outside my room..no one at home..
looked at the clock..oh my tian.....
its 4 sumthing le..
tian ar...
well....on my fone....recifed a msg frm her....
hehe...but oh well..
she's not the one i'm tinkin abt when i woke up..
so was quite ya...no feeling....for once...haha
so jus told her...we plan tonite lor...so ya...
den ya...sent a msg to tat one was tinking abt
take so long to reply me....kaoz..
den got no food at home..
so cycled to grandma house eat steamboat.
yea...auntie made cheesecake....its really nice..
hahhaha...tian ar...
shit..wat's up wif tat word man..
yea..ok..
den was bit bored...so watched finish tis show den i cycled home..
was msgin all the while la..
den ya..
now i am here...
winnie ask me go study wif her later..at her hse..
haha..1st time sia...hmm...she jus said..come anytime u wan..
o well...if 2yrs ago..i'll be happy.....but not now la..
yea..cant seem to link my fwens chatterbox in...
damn..
well...tink they all died...o well..
no la...maybe coz i nv go talk to them ba..
but u noe me...only when i feel lyk den i will....
so ya....those i msg...u all better be honoured..
hahaha.
yea yea..
wateva la...i dun need fwens to get by....do i??
duno la...
den online...yea..thanks bi...
for being the 1st one to listen to me...hehee..
well....ytd's blog was rubbish...u noe me la...
when comes to late at nite..as in real late..always talk shit...
y do i tend to do all these???
maybe lorraine shld go c a doctor le..hahahaha..
yea yea..
hmmm....i wish i could turn back time....
to those when u were jus so nice to me..
yet i choose the other way.....
its no point of me saying those now...
but i dun wish to hurt u...
i noe ppl will say its rubbish....lies n all tat...
but honestly.....i'm speakin the truth..
yes..the fact is tat...i cant go on my life...
coz i jus cant get her off my heart.....
i duno when will it ever end..
it lyk taking forever..
i'm not saying its not possible....
but...i dun wish to hurt anyother...
besides....i dun wish to spoil tis thing tat we built...
i dun wish to be unfair to u too....
besides...u may hav someone else in ur heart too...
den jus let me n u...slide off....
neway...i jus hope u noe who u r....
to others.......dun ask who izit...
ciaoz..
可爱女人
back again..
cant stand it...its huanting me..
can i hate friendster..
or can i jus leave it..
things jus gotta let me c it..
thou i did find her chio...
how come she can get her..
jus lyk tat....oh gosh...
j**l.....she's blind..
wateva she sees her in man...
o wateva...so long as she's outfa shar's sight..hahahha..
hmm...or am i suppose to leave it to fate...
i noe she will not noe anything..
but i cant...face her n not telling her abt it...
haiz....wat am i to do???
hmm....wat if she go ask her??
wat if she actually saw tat pic already..
haiz..am i tinking too much..
these few days....actually..
i nv tink of her at all..
jus tat...ppl jus gotta keep bringing her up..
lyk nobody's business..
wateva la..
sometimes i dun understand wat are u trying to do to me???
r u really my fwen or waT?
arrrrrhhhhhh........
its driving me nuts..
i totally hav no idea wat to do....
i wana leave..
wana jus leave tis place.....
if tml she does not msg me.....den forget it..
not gonna brethe a word le...
maybe fwens oso cannot be le..
wat's the world coming to....
am fucking moody.....n yet i cant show..
cant tell...
cant let out my gas......
wateva.....
hmmm....now i'm here blogging...
o well....
am watching football online now...
actually winning le..
but they jus gotta score another one..
kaoz..if not can get money again rite....
hehe..
well...
in short...i had a damn tiring day...
actually din plan to go wif them..
but coz was angry wif bro..mum...
so din wan to go home....
dad was lyk keep asking where was i....hack..
ya..he will never expect its hotel 81..
hahaha...pengz..
wateva...
den ya..din wana go home..
so went there uninvited....hahahaha...
aiyah...
am so lazy to go for the details..
the room is small la..
ya...
hmmm....well...spare me the details la..
ya...den next day...check out...
went to mac for breakfast..
mum called....ya..
told her i coming back le..
but in the end we went parkway...
play pool....den was lyk.....
so bored...while waiting...
for hh's melody..
ya....*ehem*
ya...den waiting for tis girl they all wana c..
the whole time keep makin fun of hh..
hahahha..
wateva...
den ya...went home...bath..
was so damn tired..
now legs r lyk feeling so hot..i duno y..
maybe the sun tann...
den ya...
was chatting wif hui....
found out somethings..
wondering shall i tell her or not..
hmmm......
wateva la....din noe she got tat mei li...
o wateva..
so long as she gives up on...her...
i'm happy for her...
hahhahhaa...wat the hell i talking abt..
i duno la..
things gettin crazy..
i dunno how to fix things...
maybe i shld leave for awhile..
before things get worst...
for tis moment...
i hate friendster...
but haiz..things gotta get by..
but i wish she nv forget our date...
tml's the 5oct....
tian ar....if wana count its lyk how long ago..
but guess 2001 yr was the best.....
tat day...tat time....tat place......
but haiz....wateva...i wun c her tml...
so no point saying now...
hmm....wonder will she remember....?
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Thou we have to be apart...i carry u inside my heart...i love u more than words can say...and in my heart u'll always stay...12/04
if you love someone...set her free...if she comes back...then u noe its meant to be...if she don't...be contented tat it grew in yours...12/04...by carol..
i'll be loving u forever...deep inside my heart u'll leave me never...Even if u took my heart..and tore it apart...i will love u still....FOREVER
It's so hard to say how a love could end this way...the one that used to care for u...jus turns and walks away...n its so hard to find...to leave the pain behind...n all the things u looking for...ur heart cant seem to find...26/04
I will never forget the days we once had...The days when u were everything to me...My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever...But now i realised that was all a big dream...The feelings i have for u will never go...I wish i could take back that one regretful day..The day when i willingly let you slide from my arms...Never did i think of the astonishing pain of regrets....That once i would have to live through...The sight of u in someone else's arms makes my heart shatter into million pieces...I sometimes wonder if u still think of me....Or if to u..i'm jus a face in the crowd...I wish so very much that one day we could hav it all back...But for now, I'll sit here silently.....Remembering all the memories we once shared...Everyday my love grows much stronger...Hoping that one day you will feel the same....AND put BACK the pieces of my BROKEN heart....06/05...
Time will never change the things we've been thru...and afterall we're meant to be...love would bring us back to u n me...if only u could see....120503
baby..give me back my fantasy...e courage tat i need to live..e air tat i breathe....living without u..my world's become so empty...days r so cold n lonely...n each nite i taste...
THE PUREST OF PAIN
Baby coz u dunno how i feel....living my life without u..and u dunno what its lyk...loving u all this time...i give u all my love, heart and soul....risking it all on a chance...and now when i need u the most...u dunno
Can we go back to the days our love was strong...Can u tell me how a perfect love goes wrong.....Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way it used to be....Oh god give me a reason...i'm down on bended knees..
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but how you can learn from them..170603
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it...180603
if i could exchange all my happiness for a single moment wif u...if i could reach out and touch my princess only a second or 2..the choice would hav been easy...coz the only thing i'll ever do...is staring into emptiness and thinking of u...12aug03
i'm thinking of u....and wondering if u ever think of me...14aug03...
you don't know what you mean to me. no matter what i do, all i think about is you. i simply jus can't forget all tat happens...u'll stay in my memories...forever..6oCt
i din noe u meant so much to me...i wish time could stop at tat moment...tat its only a world of u n me..wif no one else to bother...yet i wish we last...will i hav a chance lyk tis again???...wed
ai zhen de shi yao yong qi, que mian dui liu yan fei yu, zhi yao ni yi ke yan sheng ken ding, wo de ai jiu you yi yi.wo meng dou shi yao yong qi que xiang xing hui zai yi qi. ru guo wo de jian qiang ren xin hui bu xiao xing shang hai le ni, ni neng bu neng wen rou ti xin, wo sui ran xin tai ji, ken hai pai shi que ni...30oCt
