RaYnE LeWiS..33's world

Sunday, November 30, 2003

See what Care Bear you are.


See what Care Bear you are.

wa lau..how come got 2 de????not correct de lor...
nabei...
but its so ke ai..
so not true....i dun love...being in love...OK?OK? NA BEI


ergh..
am back...
got so many things to say...
neway..
1stly....
smthing bad happened last nite....
she cried i cried too...
din noe wat was it at 1st...
but things made me keep thinking non-stop..
n its e 1st time i feel tat way...
ergh..
wateva it is....glad tat it was jus a misunderstanding..
n tat we made up....shortly..
i jus wana say sorry...
ya...not too much to add...dun wan sae out neway...
later ppl tink they can teear us apart..
ar ha ha...ure not working....too bad for u..
ya..
in the morning...joanna suddenly call me...
was slping...said i'll call her back..
yes i did k..
den ya...jus talked awhile....
she went on wif those past......
hmm...
ya la...duno wat to say la...
she noe i hate such things....
still wan force me say....ergh..
sorry...but lorraine really duno how to tackle tis kinda fwenship thing...
haiz....its been so long....now then she bring up again..
wat u wan me to say???
ya la..i really duno le la....
k....den we put down....n she msg..
ya..
next....was jus totally rotting at home..
saw my cousin downstairs...hahaha...so ke ai..
she go buy her books for pri1..wahahhaa.
ya...my auntie say i slim down le can???
gosh....but i still feel fat lor..
aiyah...ok enuff of tat..
ya..
was late..
den ya la...got back not long ago la..
ya..
she so sweet today can????
wanted to meet me...so nan de can????
haiz...duno true not...only when i tell her i going off le..
den she say wanted to meet me de..
aiyah...nvm la...its the thot tat counts..
neway..jus wana say u brighten up my day...my mood really..
jus by those few msgs..
hehe...
ya..
to yizhen: if ure reading tis..
i saw ur blog....hmm...
tis i really duno wat to say la..
jus tat...it so happened i'm out wif them lor..
come on la...if lyk tis u feel tat u cant trust me den wat can i say rite????
i dun understand...y u mus take it so strong..
not as if we dun wan u as our fwens le wat..
always u dun wan contact us all de..
haiz..i duno la..
wateva u say la k..
i'm too tired for all these....
i noe u wun tell me things...coz u noe i nv wan to hear abt him..
but still...
going out wif him afew times does not mean i'm on his side wat....
ergh...dun so sensative can????

haiz...tat's all i can say....
everyone's mood was not very good today...
i wonder y...
but at least.....u brighten up my day..hehe..
tink i'm gonna slp soon...
n i'm wondering..
when will i c u again??????


Saturday, November 29, 2003

back..
well...went out jus now..
sorry guys nv reply u alll..
ya..
neway...so many things happened jus lyk tat..
ya..
1st..went to meet hui n jojo..
1st hui say wan go pasa malam..
den ya...i say wan go 85 eat the frog leg porridge..
ya..
n hui...thanks so damn much...got a shocked..
everyone...she bought the project shop wallet for me can???
oh my tian...so sweet can???
she say 1st saw it...jiu buy for me le..
so sweet.....hehee...
no wonder will miss u so much in chalet..
wahahah...
ya..sat at 85 talk talk talk...slack slack slack..
waited for nic to come..
den we headed to katong for billard..
played till lyk...12 plus n i din noe..
ergh...
tink playing wif me...makes him bored...
hahaa....sorry la...nicky nicky nicky nic..
wahhahaa..
while playing..
12 plus...so worried for my results..
wanting to call ppl up help me check..
wanted to ask her...
but i'm jus afraid...
so i nv in the end..
thou i really wish it was her...who will break the news to me..
but ya..
wahaha....heng i passed all lor..
to at least make up for my driving ba....
haha...1st person i wanted to share wif was her...
but guess i kena bang lyk hell....nvm...
ya...den we walked all the way to katong chicken rice dere..
had our supper abit..
den proceed home..
she finally replied...
ya..
duno wat's happening..
but ya...cant help tinking..
wateva it is....
quote from hui.....JUS DO UR BEST...N GOD WILL DO THE REST..
i hope so ba..


Friday, November 28, 2003

ergh....
i'm so fucking pissed now..
wateva la..
everything is so wrong.....
since i was back frm chalet..
mood wrong everything wrong.....
frm i slp...till i wake up...
till last nite...
ergh.....n now....today..
my driving..

everything is so damn wrong..
duno wat else to say already la...
it was a bad day for me..
jus gotta rain n all tat.
so pai say tat i will fail..
ergh..
i hate myself..
hate tis fucking world..
i duno wat to say.....
ure so different from the rest....
i really duno how to handle tis.
maybe ur so independent .....u dun even need me.....
haiz..
i duno la....
duno when i will c u....
its fine wif me..
coz life suxs already..
i wish time could stop few days back..
n stay forever there...
a time....tat i MIA frm the whole world..
in my world of our group....
ok......i'm not tiunking right again...
nothing can make me smile now..
not even to say laugh....
maybe u did jus now.....
but...
nvm...
.ergh...
hui say tat thing she gonna give me gonna make my day.
i hope so..
coz i really need it..
to carry on man..
ergh..
its only the starting....


Thursday, November 27, 2003

erg.....
i'm finally back..
seems lyk i mia from tis world of internet..
wahahahhaa..
wateva..
jus checked the score of soccer..
wahahaa..i won...
of course la..
saw tis email....horoscope de..
wahaha...so true.
ya..
chalet ar....lazy to write la peps..
bi ko n mel...
so sorry....couldnt entertain u all much..
n got nothing much to eat....coz tat damn woman spill the butter rite.
den i cant cook anything for u all to eat.
den oso nothing much to eat le..
so sorry..
ya..
ergh...nothing much to add le la.
dun wana say out my chou shi..
but i tink they will blog abt it de..
surely.
wahhaaa..
ok la...can say everything's quite fine...
was stef's burfdae...
den celebrate abit..
ya...
sorry to ma fan u all..
din noe it will get so bad rite..
den ya....got play black jack abit..
hahaha...find tat my money always jus disappear lyk tat..
hahhaha.
ya....nothing le la..
hmmm....
took cab back..slpt n all tat la..
ppl keep msging n waking me up..
.ergh..
neway...cant really slp oso la..so ya...
ok....tat's all folks....
for the whole 3 days.....
shall get all set for my driving tml..
OMG RITE...i cant wait...
really pray hard i'll jus scrape pass....
so long as can pass jiu hao le...
ya...
hui jus said she bought somthing for me..
cool......haha...cant wait to c me rite???
i noe la..wahahahaa...


Tuesday, November 25, 2003

am so so so bored here...
dl-ed some new songs..
wahahaa......so cooll......
keep hearing it again n again..
ergh..
something's bothering me...
but still.....it makes me hard to be....to u..
i cant bring myself to show u...anything..
coz every time i c ur face?...it will jus make me smile..
haiz....duno wat to do la..
maybe i can jus ignore it..
but.....its really affecting me...coz u matters so much to me..
ergh....i duno la..
i may say all these now...
but...i still miss u alot alot...ergh..


Monday, November 24, 2003

today..
is the 24th..
sianz..
woke up early today to meet mag jo cui.
but cui tua us in the end.
so 3 of us..made our way to sheng siong..
ya...ate wif mag..
den we went to get the stuffs....
its lyk all so much lor..
kaoz...den we 3 carry lyk siaoz..
thanks for the rest not coming la.
nabei..
ya...
took cab to my house..
proceed wif massaging all the chicken's in the world unite..
ya..
den slacked..
all the way..
den decided to meet nat they all at pw.
was so lazy.....we 3 took cab there..
wana play pool...but haiz..
was raining damn heavy la.
ya.
den walked around...get more stuffs frm there lor.
saw stephanie ng rite...gosh..she looks the same...
ya..
hui's sis spotted me....she wif her mum la..
wahahhaa...
saw yiling oso la...
ate yoshinoya 2 days in a row..
gosh...same thing somemore..
den....slack at mos..
went withdraw money again..
kaoz..i really spent alot alot alot le.
die la..
these few days..
n the rest of my hols..
how to survive man....
haiz....any one wana yang wo?????
hahahahah...
den went home le..
so sianz on the way..
no md..no one talk to..
sianz.....
ya..
got home...
haha...won ytd's soccer...so happy..abit only la.
neway..
cant wait for tml..
gonna hav so much fun.....
ya...bye u peps...
wun be blogging for long..
n oh oh oh..
driving's coming..
wahahahaa...


Sunday, November 23, 2003

am too lazy to blog la.
so ya..
neway....today rite..
i saw alot of things i wana get..
ergh...
hate it when ur bank got no money..
n u jus cant get it...den when u wan its gone..
ergh..
add to my list..
i wan the project shop new wallet.....white n brown strips..
ergh...so mei lor..
den tis t-shirt frm topman...kaoz..so nice...n its only 30plus..
na bei la..
i got no money la..
the whole of next week..
i'm out out out..
so ya.....
die le la..
ok..
shall no t tink so much ba..
ok..
wana go off le...
probs are getting on my nerves...
wana MIA.....


1stly...
happy burfdae hui..
wahahha..
everyone not online now....
hmm...
jus came home...waiting for heater to hot..
den jus online abit..
today hui's burfdae..was wif her the whole day
ya...
met up quite early...since i was early..
so dropped by...picked hui up abit..
ya..
1st thing she said.....abt tat..
n den she say i blush lyk hell..
show me tat pic..
k la..my face always red de ma??
ya....den...
interesting thing happened in the bus..
wahaha...i say lyk nobody's business..
wahaha..hui dun even noe anything...wahahhaa..
den ya...i say lyk hell..
st8 got down the bus...told nat abt it..
damn it....got alot of things i shld hav said...i never..
damn it lor....but aiyah...was bad enuff le..
wahahahaa
ok la..
nothing much..
went st8 to k-box...so fun...
sang laugh....cried too.....jus 1 song...
they took when i was singing n crying lor..
wahaha..
but the rest of the time i'm laughin..
wahaha..of course la..
hui keep saying abt tat thing..
make me blush..
take picture lyk hell..
jojo came....yizhen came...
ya...
nic came too....all for xiao hui k..
ya..
lyk tat le la....ate at pasta mania..
den walked to katong shopping center..
hmmm.....they were talking abt katong...
n ya...den shar msg me..
ergh...wateva..
den ya...watched soccer lyk hell..
in the end...mum bought de nv win la.
so wasted..
n heng i listened to angel's words..
nv buy illigal de..wahahaa....coz nv win oso la..
ya..
den after tat billard wif nic...
den ya...went for supper at KATONG...again..
ya..
wat to do la....
cheryl's bf finally having supper wif us..
so nan de lor..
cheryl mus be happy lyk hell..
even hui was so damn happy lor..
haiz...but my poor yizhen.....was not feeling good at all....
i duno wat to say to make her happy too..
haiz...
tat's abt it in short la..
i gotta go bath...now...hav a rest...long rest..
shall tell up the details...
soon ba...
512.


Friday, November 21, 2003

finally time to blog...
ergh...
so many things happen...jus by a click...
wonder y mus human...all be so different..
haiz...
my new made group....having a tough time now..
n me here.....cant do anything at all..
ergh....
actually thou i really dun hav the right to say anything..
but really lor....
yuan lai u all say she bo ji is coz she nv blog anything...
pls la...
12 din say anything is not coz she bo ji..
but she din wana say anything to make things worst..
coz tinking tat...its on agreement tat they will settle it after o's..
yet....TAT HER..gotta time n time again...write all these...n
coz she noe ur character...if she jus write abit...u will make a whole damn big thing abt it wat..
jus lyk tat tag abt the practical thingy....is coz its over le...den jus delete..
lyk tat u bu shuang le...den ya...
wat abt u la...hav u tried putting urself in her shoes..
u write soooooo damn much...how will she feel????
come on la..u say u noe her well...but ya...ure so contridicting lor...
ergh...nothing to say abt u...coz i dun even noe wat kinda person r u..
coz seriously...i had nv meant anyone wif SUCH character lyk u...
duno is wat type of human......hor hui???
so ya...
n pls....in bold...all these is i c for myself de...ok? she nv said anything at all ok?na bei u better get it thru....n den later stop accusing...
i'm not a person...who sits down n jus take it living..
the point is...i CAN BU SHUANG...u wana say i busybody..
GO AHEAD...yes i am...
SO....BIG DEAL AR...AT LEAST I ADMIT..
ya..
next thing..
to whom it may concern..
jus wana let u noe...
i'm seriously disappointed in u..
i noe u will read tis...
i jus wana let u noe tat.....
starting rite....ure the few who noe wat happened..
u even heard 12's story...so ya...but coz u were closer to TAT HER..
tat's y u choose to side UR FWEN...
u knew wat happened....yet today u can still say all these...
ha...i really duno wat to say...
real disappointed...
it makes me tink....for almost a yr i knew u...
ure jus so sweet....so caring...n all tat..
now it makes me think....did i c the wrong person???
or was i wrong frm the start...?
or izit plain..jus u tat changed????
haiz..i really dun wish to tink...
for tat i still wan u as a fwen..
n to stress again...12 din say anything...is i can c for myself... so pls dun accuse her...again...ok?
ergh.......ok la..better stop or i'll rubbish more le...
thank god its not happening to my goody palz..
i jus hope....everything's fine....
yizhen...hope u'll heal.....n be back lyk the way it used to be...
to hui.....ure getting older le...pls...do smthing abt it..
i talking abt ur hair...ure bolding...
wahahhaa..
ya...finally i laugh le....thanks to hui..
she's so ke ai..every now n then...ask me...rayne ar...u ok???
wahaha.....tat kinda concern...will jus.....will jus...
i oso duno how to say la.
save me my face ba..
ya....
to whom it may concern....
duno if u will be hurt.
but i'm jus speaking the fact..
jus lyk u 'claim' tat u were too...on ur blog...
n jus lyk u.....i din bother to tink how the other party will feel...
JUS LYK U....LEARN FRM U....
alrite...
i tink i was direct enuff......


Thursday, November 20, 2003

yupz..
there's nothing to add...


wat the fuck la...
na bei....hon kan la..
pls la...write one whole shit of words..
fucking hell...who started it 1st la..
pls la....such a small little thing...
wana make until so damn bloody big.....
remember all the details lyk fuck.....
""""""aiya pple jus write 2 ntertain themselves & wan create trouble..so let dem b""""""""
aiyo.....damn contridicting lor...na bei...she talking abt herself wat..
hahaha...pls la..she the one started all this shit..
if ppl tat duno rite....think is tis mad cow writing to herself..
coz 12 does not even WRITE A THING IN her blog abt it..
yet she's been lyk......going all over the world spreading..
wat a fucker rite....oh oh...sucker ba..
na bei...tell u la....u so childish u cant survive in damn poly de la..
i fucking tell u...u heng u not in my sch...if u long ago..
u kena fuck lyk no one's business le la..
na bei....hon kan ar.
""""noe tat..tix kind of pple wun live long..she jus dun admit tat she did tat..coward rite..""""
tell u ar...if u read the ting again n again rite..
u will find tat she's all talking abt herself again...
wa kaoz la...coward....whose the one man...
na bei.....start all these damn shit....den jus wana make things worst..
if u never planned to settle it....den dun EVER TALK ABT IT ANYMORE...
hon kan la...
finish wat i wana say le la...na bei.
ya....sorry guys u all gotta read tis stuff.....
but its a fwen's thing tat i gotta help..
coz i really can bu xi que le.....really heng bu shuang...
i had never since someone so "kei kao" as her lor..
wa lau....its such a small thing....den she wana make until lyk tat...
afterall......12 did not say anything abt it at all lor..
so u can c frm here...whose the one...so "kei kao"...
everything oso write in detail...nabei...
pls la....if u hav decided to leave......DEN JUS GO LA..
GET LOST....GET OUT...FAR FAR AWAY LA...
dun keep coming back...n talk abt the PAST..
not sianz ar...say lai say que...its the same few things...


Wednesday, November 19, 2003

duno wat to write le la..
na bei hon kan ar...
pls la.......
not stupid k..
na bei.....better watch wat u say now lor....


Monday, November 17, 2003

ergh.....
hui....1st thing b4 i write my entry today...
haiz..
y mus girls.....be lyk soy bean?????half hot half cold....
pur siong lieng.....
ergh......wateva la..
neway....cheryl...thanks for tat song...hahaha..i love...
yupz.....ytd couldnt slp at all...
called hui coz i off my comp le..
damn it...i bought england..n they can lose to denmark...
na bei la...
once smthing goes wrong.....everything goes wrong too..
ergh...den keep laughin at hui..
den she say when her mat hot....my ja...cold..
ergh.....she's always cold lor...hui..so tink mat will hot wif u everyday la..
den i suffer lor...ja cold...wat can i do rite????
ya....wateva la....shall not bother...
ya...today..
went grandma's hse awhile....cousin so happy c me..
its her burfdae today ma..
den ya..nothing much..
got home...n get ready to go sch for the pan wei bo concert..
eee...so many ppl there lor...
jus for him????waited so long....
den ya....jiang mei qi can sing la..
but dun lyk her face ba..
yupz....pan wei bo...so shuai..
den he dance all.....
his jeans sux la...not levis...
lyk sum baggy jeans..
aiyo...
ya..nothing much le la..
he sang abt 5 songs nia....
quite alright la..now i go dl his songs..
wahahhaa...coz there's one damn nice..
i wana dedicate it to her..
yupz...den ya...saw charles....so shuai oso..zhou jie lun wor.
ya..den me bi ko n her fwen...(used to be a thing)...
haha..make our way to bishan...
cant decide wat to eat..
in the end...mos burger..heng mel not there..
den i can eat my mos..
wahhahaha.
yupz..
walk walk around..
hehhe...making plans for fri....gosh..
cant wait..
ya...so bi....on bo?????we go cheong la....
settle wif adine den tell me k????ya ya..
took train home..
damn it la..so damn many ppl..
got nothing to do...
played wif my md...
sianz..sianz sianz...


Sunday, November 16, 2003

jus got back..
hmmm..
wat did i do today??
erm...
oh oh oh..
last nite was lyk so crazy...
nothing to do....searching lyk hell for my movies..
den give it up..
so jus went to watch my vcds..
hahaa....yuan lai...its not miss congenality..
its notting hill...."i'm afterall i girl...standing in front of a boy...asking him to love me"..
wahahhaaa.....
its not as nice as i expected..
ya..
den watched miss congenality...until lyk....4plus..
wahaha...i laughed to myself lyk hell..
she damn funny...WORLD PEACE..
wahahhaaa...damn damn funny..
den wat lesbians stuff....
wahahaha...damn funny.
she said..."u tink i'm gorgeous....u wana date me...."
wahahaha.....so damn funny....love tat show..
"ure one in a million......awww..."
ahahhahaha..
yupz..
went to slp damn late....den woke up quite early...
haiz...cant slp le......din hav any msg tis morning.....sob sob..
ya....mum said wana go find bro at novena square...
ergh....ya..went to beach road eat e famous prawn mee..
not bad...so bao..
den headed to find bro...wahaha...he was on stage le..
jus in time...took a few pic....jus realised...he really looked cool doing thai boxing..
wahahaa..
den got tat girl tat always wear tat pink boxer de..
she at least 1.7 lor..ya..den ya...i scan lyk hell....
ya....din noe she scanning me too..
den ya..after his performance rite...den tat girl perform..
wah...i stund..she's damn good lor..
she's so chio smmore...her legs so mei kind...flawless..
gosh...but mum say too skinny..
ya..den later she scan me...tell my bro say...she noes me can?
but pls lor..i duno her can????
gosh...she say kc-pri..
tian ar..i really duno lor..
gosh..
ya..nothing le la...maybe she's crook?wahahha...
vateva la.
ya...nothing at novena square...so mum say go suntec.
yupz...jus walk walk...super sianz..
finally....she de msg me at 4plus le.
yupz..d.en lyk tat lor.
kk....din buy anything la...
went to carrefour.....bought lots lots things..
wahahahaa....
yupz..
den dad came to fetch...went beach road the other part..
to eat claypot..
ya..damn full now..
nothing much...she made me sad again....
nvm..shall not say abt it...



Saturday, November 15, 2003

here am i online..
today..
went pw wif mel..
haha...she very smart..once i wake up..she noe le..
thanks to the person who invented delivery report la.
wahahaha..
yupz..headed to pw..
hmm.....din noe wat to eat..so decided on bk..
nothing much...went to toilet....bang into tis 'bo tar' guy..
hahaha...its alvin lor...wahahah...hong han..got hear me????
wahhaa...he looks weird wifout his hair la....but still shuai la..
wahahha.
yupz...den nothing to walk walk aroun..
mel bought tis shorts frm op..
while me..
tis shirt from springfield de...wahahaha...
my 2nd shirt frm there.....so x k..
yupz...but wana grab it..b4 its gone..
but angel says ok only la..
haiz.....looks lyk i wun wear often le la..
hmm...hehe..kidding.
yupz...den was raining so heavy...we went to buy the gio umbrella.
$6 bucks..
hahaha..went to spray the miracle again..haahaaa..
now mel is sensative to tat smell too..
but hahahaha.....ya...nvmm.
hmm...wat else??nothing le...went to play pool..
erm....saw j.c. ergh...jus when i was jus talking abt her ytd lor..
hmm...pretend nv c her...but mel smiled at her..
so ya...gotta go say hi...erh...the gf...nvm...
ya...den lyk tat la...still the same...
nv talk much la...din hav the time too...
tat woman still tinks i'm wif mel...
ya ya ya...funny..
den mel went to church..
while me...went to find the group tat roxs...
wahahhaa.
yupz...on the way...passed hui's hse...
den they both called n conference abit..
haha...cheryl tell me the details...wat happened ytd..
so sweet the ah tiang..
wahahaha....if so cheap next time i oso go rent a car la.
wahaha..cant wait..
nvm..its soon le...1 week plus..
hahah..
ok..next...frm airport..they pei me talked all the way..
hui say she noe i was sad....ya rite la...
if u nv c my blog u wun noe de rite??????
hahahaa....kidding la..
then nothing le la..
they made their way to cui fen's hse..
gosh....tat woman make us wait downstairs....
so long....cui fen ar...wat the hell u doing....
hahahahaaaaa....kidding la....
den frm her hse...walked all the way to 85 can????
hmm.....ate...as usual la..wat's new man..
den ya...slacked lyk hell..
jo.....today i nv 'pi yang' hor?????
u oso la...wahahhaa....
ppl waiting for our seat...but we keep saying waiting for me chicken wings..
wahahahaa.
hack..
den ya...nothing much le la..
nat's really a slacker.....everywhere...is jus can sit down n slack/????
wahahhahaa....
ok..nothing le la..
made my way back...
now back to slack...tml...tink i'll be at home ba..
hahaahhahaaa...yupz....
tat's abt it folks...

wanting to put tat song...i heard while playing pool..
.forget it...its taking forever to load..
its...
westlife- i lay my love on u.....
S club 7- never had a dream come true...
all so nice rite...


duno y my mood's been bad..
all the while today..
ergh...
dun even noe wat's happening..
while online..
fone keep ringing....09 keep calling..
ergh..
she told me abt tat day......at pw..
ergh......
i duno wat to believe..
wat to do...
y shld i bother..
but ya....dun take me for a fool..
u damn ass...
vateva u wan frm me..
im not gonna be lyk last time already..
so fuck ur way off....
erghh.......already not in a good mood..
den u jus gotta add to make it worst..
wateva la..
ure not the one...i wish to talk on the fone to...
SUCKER


Friday, November 14, 2003

back again..
am totally bored lyk hell here..
nothing to do at all..
hmmm..
yea...
went to ta bao dinner...
hahaha....chatting wif my....qing ai de jus now..
hahhaaa...yupz..
they r really such nice souls..
unlike some other.....J.C i noe...S.Z...
hahaha..yupz..
wateva la.
den ya..
nothing much...mel called..
hahaha...sure bo..i dun mind lor..
yupz..
nothing le la..
am so tired of living in this world..
anyone to brighten up my day??????
those bears????
hahahahhaha...they will...
yea..
nothing le la.....
wateva it is.....i dun wan tis to split....alright?????
can u hear me???????????
u noe who u r.....ok?
k....i wonder if she'll talk to me tonite...
i'm still waitng...hehe..


oh my god..
not a single soul is online now???..
y is tat so lor..
izit coz its a fri..everyone is out???
then y poor me am rotting at home?????
argh....wateva la..
she din reply me..
wonder y.....shall not bother much either...
yupz..
jus lyk tat la....hate tis fucking world..
i had enuff....
gtg now....
to continue rotting...
i swear things are getting bad...
i duno y la.......
can u lyk make time pass faster for me????
ergh...its killing me here....


Thursday, November 13, 2003

today ar..
din go k-box wif hui cheryl..
so sorry....but heng i wasnt there la..
dun wana c...too..
yea..
ok..back..
picked up..
made way down to p.l...
went to watch wishing stairs..
wahaha...tat show ar..
ok ba...not tat scary at all...
hahahaa....jus a few part..
is the oh my god my god my god kind..
hahahhahaa.
yea yea...at least it was quite alright.
wahahaa..
hmm....den ya....frm p.s...
we walked all the way to far east.....can?
kaoz...damn far lor..
was xtra...talked to melody on the way..
hahahhaa..
we were guessing wat will her daphne wear..
haha....she's really a very nice bung..
ok la...everyone seems nice to me..
maybe coz...i hav veryvery bad experience wif bungs ba..
tat makes everyone else seems so nice to me..
hahahaa.
yea..
but they are la..
melody...my 'beloved'...hahahaha..
yea..den jus slacked at starbucks...
hmmm..today who i saw ar..
saw naadirra....raja n her stead...n tat malay bung...shar's fwen..
forgot her name le la..
yea..
oh oh...mel..i saw carrie rite..
ya..she wif those kids la...wahahaha..
hmm...saw priscilla humphris....mel u wun noe who de la..
waahhaha.
yea..
who else ar??
if i can remember den i add again la.
neway...thanks jojo....for msging at the right time.,....
c xiao hui...tis girl always brighten up my day..
hehehee..
yea yea..
on my way home..
am lyk so happy...so shocked....
its lyk...the thing is lyk....couple together kinda thing..
so happy..
wahhahahaa...
these 2 days.....really....made my daes..
thanks so much...
eh.....nothing le....better go off now...ciaoz


jus got back..
mel la...tat chapalam..
ytd say meet...den later...say cannot meet.
den tis morning...say can meet again.
wa...when i on my fone..she st8 away call sia.
hahaha..
ya...actually wanted to slp longer..
but got woken up...haiz..
ya..
den took 36 to town..
was waiting for tat tone in my fone..
hahaha...told mel..
she will 1plus 2 den msg..
n ture enuff lor.
wahahahaa....hehee..
i'm not pig k...already wake up le.
ya..
me n mel couldnt decide wat to eat la.
in the end walked to far east..
ate at hans..
tat damn guy not there rite.
called him dun wana ans my call...
wa kaoz...MY $580....his not gonna pay me back lor.
ni na bei.
ergh...wateva la..it does not bother my slp now.
ya..
den jus walked walked...
OH....B4 i walked to far east...saw andrea n her 'bessy'
haha..pretend nv c her...but she jus gotta call my name..
so ya..jus looked at her..wahaha..nv smile..din hav chance la...
she mus hav hated me...
wateva..i dun care...
den ya...at far east rite..
jus guess who i saw....ALL THE DUCKS IN THE WORLD UNITE RITE..
eee......y i gotta c her 1st..
cant i c tannia 1st rite..
GOSH...WAIT...the thing i said really came true..
hui..remember i said...1st day saw seline...den 2nd serene..
den i say dun tell me andrea n tannia..
tian ar...really their whole gang can..
gosh...y so ling de????
eeeee...
but din really c tannia's face la....HEBE...wor?
yea..
den suddenly my fone ring..
thot who sia..
its shar...wa kaoz...
ya..talked to her awhile..
nvm..she called de ma..
ya..told her abt tannia all...wahahahhaa..
yea...nothing much le la..
walk walk...was so bored.
nothing much to buy..
still cant find myretired edition..
haiz..
how???
hui...
neway..den went hmv...slack..
den sat down...mel met the ah bee.
den we went to marina..to get my stuffs.
den went to bakers inn at fullerton.
so far lor..
today i really walk alot alot le lor.
kaoz..den ya...nothing much.
the ah bee...quite ok la..can talk all de la.
den ya...not as bad as i thot la.
hmm...bought the cake there.
bbut mel...it melted rite..so sad can?
haiz...such a spoiler..
wateva...make me carry for nothing la.
na bei.
k..took train back..bought my jersey..
30 bucks...thou its abit the big.
but i love..
wahahaa.
yea..lyk tat la..its the england de....7beckham..
hehe.
yea..
den went mel's hse..talked to her mum.
den made my way down.
yea...was slacking..eating...
den ya..nothing much..
79's such a sweetie.....hahaha.
both oso la...haha...
n daphne's such a playful bung..
wahaha....not bad...she's funny..
n tat meng zhe look alike..gosh.
ya...hmm...poor mag always get into their talk..
hahaha.....3 of us...will say her legs.
hahaha..ure used to it le rite.
yea..
on my way home...
got smthing...reached home....got a shocked..
so damn happy..
had never felt lyk tat for such a long long time..
how many yrs le??????
its not the present....but ur effort in it..
n plainly...its jus coz of u..
hehe...
jus wana say....a big thank u..
hehe...nv knew u wuld do so much jus for me..
i'm touched to the bitz...
hehe....muacks..
yea yea..nothing le la.
jus tat...i broke my nail...so pain..
n now look so awful..
hahaa...yea...





Tuesday, November 11, 2003

jus came back from bedok..
went to meet up wif yizhen..yiling came too..
went to find jojo's mum.
hahaha.
went to eat.
cant decide wat to eat la.
was so bored.
no where to go.
ate at S21...
ahhaha.....
"hu ran heng xiang ni"
gave her a msg.....hehehe....
the pasa malam so lousy.
den i wan to buy tat beckham jersey leh.
its 30 bucks...n its M size le.
but still look quite big la.
yizhen said its up to me.
but i duno to buy or not.
tink i'm getting it la.
kk...30 bucks jus lyk tat.
i'm supposed to save money.
vateva la.
was msging the whole time...
so ke lian..her leg..
wait..my leg worst k.....
yea yea.
on my way home...took 38..
lazy to wait for 229...
din bump into her..
but ya...nvm..
walked home...dun even noe wat am i tinking..
jus suddenly so moody...
den all the way till now..
am still the same..
well....
jus wana say sorry......
i've caused so much trouble today..
really big sorryya?
okok....hope things get better...or i'll feel so damn bad...really..
ya..
next...mel ar...stop asking me stup qns la...
pls la...i had enuff la..
not happy block...happy dun block..
pls la...wateva la...childish lyk hell..
n wats the point now..
its too late to change now lor...
ya....wateva k....

ok....lazy find lyrics put inside la..
so ya...
and i wonder...r u thinking of me..
coz i'm tinking of u....????


am so full now.
jus had lunch....so pao...
hmmm......it consist of my dinner, supper last nite...
n breakfast cum lunch..
wahaha....no need to eat dinner le.
lyk tat can jian fei.
wahaha.
yea..
slpt at 4 last nite....woke up at 2..
wahahaa....still feeling tired..
when i woke up..
duno wat happened to me...took a step n fell st8 on to the floor..
kaoz..so pain....not funny lor..
ya..
now rotting at home..nothing to do..
feel lyk studying...but there's nothing for me to study..
hahaha....gonna die at home le la.
really bored lyk hell..
somebody save me..
ok...tml mus go out le.
wahahaa...
ya..nothin le la...shall pack my room since got nothing to do oso.
wahahaha...
yea...


gosh....
i'm jus back..
now on the fone wif cheryl n hui now....jojo jus put down.
hmmm...
well..
my day...
woke up super early.
den went to sch..
classmate tua me....make me wait so long...
ate at mac..couldnt get N bear for nana....sorry chan..
wahahaahaa...
den ya...studied abit..
hehe.....angel msg me jus b4 i went in...
hehehee.....
ya...thot i really noe le lor..
den ya...in the end come out exact same thing...same figures all.
faintz..
try to remember wat i've learnt..
coz last nite i couldnt learn those.
haiz...wonder if i can pass.
haiz..dun wana talk abt it le la..
since i noe its over..there's nothing i can do.
allison suggest we go out.
den since i was tinking i got no where to go...den ya.
din noe hui was taking the same paper thou she did tell me..
wahahahaa
went to bugis wif allison meet her fwen..
felt so 'out' there..
walked frm bugis to suntec.
they wanted to find job.
but ya...called hui..
n went to meet her instead at p.s...
she n yas was playing pool ma..
hmm....saw them....got the warm feeling...
felt so much better..
hui tells me she loves me...
hehehhehee.......but love cheryl more rite???wahahaha..
nvm..so long as u in my fan club can le..
in the end her other fwens din come.
n yas gtg..
so left me n hui lor.
walked down to hmv..
was raining..abit la.
hmm..walk walk....saw adrena...but she din hear me call her name la.
wateva..
did told mel i was at town too....she said she'll call me back..
but she din in the end la.
wahahhaa.....nvmm.....i noe ure busy la..
neway shar called.....hahhaa...tat stup girl la..
really....tink her fone rite free ar...
everyday call me....haha...her bill's gonna score i swear....
ya...tis morning she sang "chu jie" to me leh..
haiz...wat can i say man????
'ba gan qing chu le jie....ni de ai hai zai bu zai
haiz....wateva la...back...
went to find my stuff......haiz..its really the retired edition le..
haiz..wateva la.
we both take pics lyk no need pay money kind.
wahahha.
ya...walked down to stadium...she jus wanted me to c tis shirt rite.???
vat la hui..
yea yea...den bought the sushi..coz she wanted to eat so badly last nite.
who noes..i kena bang...she ate millions today.
wahaha.
yea yea....hui took train wif me...so sweet...
hehe...stopped wif me..
keep taking pic inside the train..
n keep asking her....when is our stop????
hurry red light so tat i can cross the road la.
wahahaa.
yea..
nothing much le.
did smthing....kena caught....so pai say...
no no...hehe...ya..
dun worry nothing happened to me la.
wahaha..
slacked awhile..jus when i wanted to go to the bus stop le..
carol called.
i thot she saw me or smthing..
but no...ask me help her do things..
haiz..how can i turn her down rite???
ya..so last min..din noe where to go.
thank u...for staying wif me.....i wana treasure all e times wif u.
made u feed the mos...sorry.
den ya...met her at pw..
sat down n we jus chat...non-stop..
since when was the last time i went out wif tis girl.
wahhaaa...talked alot..planned the surprise..
i thot wat we gonna do until 12 man..
but ya...before we knew it...time pass super fast.
n i din eat dinner at all..
wa...today only ate the mac breakfast n e squidhead frm old chang kee..
wahahaha....lyk wat she always say...."zuo xian ar"
wahaha.
hmmm...
lyk tat lor..talked abt past...memories flow back..
y is everyone coming back now????
i feel so loved....thou to tink of my bad memories..
wateva it is....these are the ppl who noes me in out up down...left right..
hahhaa..
carol's someone.....i find...has all tat i can find in a fwen...
haiz...point is i not close to her anymore.
haiz...my story wif her ar....wa kaoz..
longer than 33cm k..HUI..
kaoz..ya...tink not much ppl noe thou...
ok enuff of her..
wait...den she told me abt STEPHANIE NG rite...
remember who???hui???i dun tink u noe ba..
my sec 2?????yea????
neway...look at wat we planned for our fwen...
chee lin..wahahaa.....even told shar abt it...n she remembers who she leh..
she say tat ice-cream rite?????i noe k..she tinks she noes all abt me..wateva la..
shocked neway...
ya..
called chee lin's dad...told him to let us come in...
coz wan give chee lin surprise...wahaha..
we frm parkway walk to...eh...tanjong katong??
heng i noe the way..
of course la..showed her shar's house too..n everything..
since its on the way rite???
protected carol frm the dogs.....felt so 'man'...wahahhaaaaa.a...
wateva la..
neway..
den ya...stood outside...n blow balloons lor....kaoz.
thanks to her la..nv buy pump...kaoz..
blow until tell u tml...
my mouth sure....hahaha...dun say la..
hmm...ya..den cake all...
sshe in her room...den we slowly throw the balloons at her room outside..
made her walk out....den i hold de cake..
gosh...so beautiful can????
gosh...she's so damn shocked...
where got fwens lyk these who will go to tis extend jus to make u happy rite???
hahaha....got lor...carol lor.
but she wun be sweet to me de...
did told her...yes...ure nice to everyone...esp me..
hahaha.....okok....let not talk abt the past...
hahhaa.
ok la...den after tat...dad called..
den he fetched me home.
wa kaoz..he jus bought tis samsung fone rite..
its modified de...n den rite..the pics all very nice.
all my fav cars de...den the best part rite.
all his ringtones is all got ppl sing de lor.
so its lyk pure song lyk tat.
gosh..so nice..i oso wan for my fone can?
hav yet to tell.....hehee..cant wait.
den i heard one ringtone..
is chee lin's song lor..
so jiao rite..
wahaha...hurry told her abt it.
she's still so happy abt out surprise..wahaha.
keep asking how we do all..
den coz b4 tat i got suddenly call her talk to her wat.
my acting skills very good k..hui..not lyk nana...wahahaa...wait..is joanna...ya..
not tat chan mali chan ya?
got home...got a msg.
jus late by a few sec????damn it lor.
haiz...nvm..
wan her to c smthing thou...nvm..tml..
carol jus msg me again....
coz i told her...i told her abt fwens things....jus now..
den she was lyk saying....tat..
she hopes she can be a pal in my heart..
tat silly girl....u noe where u r la..
n i'm one of her best fwens she ever had...
so touched....gosh...wana cry le..
tinking of all those..haiz...
okok...tong nian le..
i'm mature le..
so ya..
haiz...wana go for the starhub interview leh...
stup cheryl last min...
haiz...i wan to work la...den the pay good rite..
wahahhaa.
ok..lets c ba...
ok hui i'm done...
but i guess i got more to update...
coz today really got lots of things to say...wahahhaha...

to bi: i'm not busy lor....i'm free everyday k....come find me out...hehe.




Sunday, November 09, 2003

yoz....
trying to study my maths today..
but haiz..
dun wana talk abt it le la.
give up..
neway....slpt until so shuang today.
din wana wake up.
but still did at 12 ba.
watched bit of soccer..
came online to c the scores.
wahahaha..
i won i won.
hahaha...cool..
yea..
next...so many msgs to reply.
wahahhaa.
ya..den ya...gotta help tat damn woman burn cds..
lyk tat lor..
was msging...hoping...but ya.
nvm....while she slpt...
shar keep calling..
so ya...went to look for her..since i cant study much too..
den ya..
cycled all the way to ECP again..
today her last day ma..
so ya...came out talk to me..
can c the difference tis time....
she treats me better..even thou i was talking to tat guy.
hmm...
ya...made me stayed there wif her..talk to her.
listen to her songs..
wat the...
ya...played wif both our fones...siao..
ya..was waiting for msg...
but ya...decided not to..
den haiz...
thru out shar was talking..i keep looking at my fone.
wahahaa...she got so pissed she kept my fone away..
kaoz ni ma la.
yea...she still owes me a burfdae present...n she say will tink abt it..
coz mus give wif sincere.....ar..wateva la...
got give then say..
talking abt it....
xiao hui...where's my burfdae present huh???
hahaha...
ya...finally she msg...but tat damn 09 dun wan let me go..
she holds all my stuffs lor..
aiyo...den she started talking abt the past..
haiz...wat can i say rite.
it is all too late or wat????
i duno la...ya ya...
vateva la.
dun wish to tink abt it..
got others to worry..
yea.
when rain no so heavy..
hurry make my way home..
was lyk all wet lor..
those under the shade mus hav thot i'm crazy..
so heavy rain still cycle..wahaha.
ya..n as u guys noe..
lorraine dun lyk to be in the rain lor..
kaoz....but haiz..
bo bian..
ok la....maybe once in a while ba..
was tinking when was the last time i got drenched lyk tat.
wahahaa....can i go to the beach wif u again???
haha.
ya...was really all wet lor...den got sand all...kaoz..
so dirty lor.
hurried came home....bath..
shar keep calling...asking me all wet all ar..
hahaha...ya la....laugh laugh laugh..
all thanks to u la..
kaoz..she better be thankful k..na bei.
ya..
came online....knew she's here.
wahahaa.
ya...den lyk tat la..msg msg..
nothing le.
had dinner wif mum dad at TJC there..
hmm....promfret steamboat..
i sianz....
wana ahem now..but cant...damn it.
texas 5 really no more small pack le la.
ergh ergh....vateva..
now gotta go back to my maths la.
thou i really tink i will fail..
but all my ans wif my fwen.
i cant study at all lor.
wats the point man.?
can god jus let me pass tis...PLS?
i really cant get in anything lor.
damn tat fwen of mine la..


Saturday, November 08, 2003

hmm...finally get to come here..
tat damn blogger la.
kaoz..
ya...n all the songs tat i'm dling is all taking lao pan tian.
wa kaoz..
always ask me to do such things for her lor..
pls la....y shld i rite???
bi n mel....y is she doing all these to me???
haiz....she said by tml..
gosh...i'm so tired le..
to others.....i can be..
but to her.....when will be the day i will be mean to her????
haiz....i'm waiting for tat day too..
vateva la...am i jus too good or wat?
haiz.....or izit testing me something?????coz she sortof noe????
i duno la...09...u r ruining my life..do u noe tat?
can 1 day dun call me ar.....
i tink i shld be grateful le..
y izit tat.....haiz...vateva la..
i'm sure u noe wat i mean....sorry...i gotta........
yea..
neway....ya...update the rest of my day.
yea.
well...went pw...din study much at all lor.
haiz..i duno y.
but ya...feel so bad...made my fwen came all the way.
in the end...was so damn tired..din study at all...
well...wanting to go home le...so ya.
told her...heng she's not angry...coz her bf coming too.
so ya..
went back get my stuffs...
zhen called...haha...she n jojo at pw too.
yea...den they find me at starbucks..
made them walked wif me to the bus stop..
hehehee.....sorry guys..
cant stay long wif u....
yizhen looks so skinny now..
mus be too stress...din eat much..
wahahaa...
yea...
den ya la...
went bedok inter...bought soccer..
den went home le lor..
i swear tat girl was saying my name to her fwen..
but i really duno who the hell she is lor...
vateva la.
den ya...made my way home...
heng i walk back...mum n dad was there eating.
i was still wondering wat shall i eat.
hahaa....good good...dun hav to spend a cent.
wahahhaa.
ya..tat's abt it for the day..
hmm....
jus saw the soccer results..
so far...won 1 le..
tis time i really bought alot.
hmmm...pray hard i will win them all..
need the money u c...
yea yea.
n my maths...haiz..
i duno how lor....its 60% lor.
haiz..how to study all them now..
hui...if ure reading tis..
tml gimme a call..i really need ur help lor.
if not i sure fail le.
N I DUN WAN TO....LOR...
yea..thanks...
am too tired to say anything le.
hopefully i can slp...without tinking tis time..
ergh....i haven help her burn yet.
damn.
aiyah..tml la.




another slpless nite..
gosh..haiz..
well...today..not by the sounds frm downstairs..
but my cousin...came to woke me up.
ask me play wif her..
haiz..at 9am in the morning...ask me to do jigsaw puzzle wif her???
gosh....testing my patience izit..
kaoz...i HATE TO WAIT LOR..
yea la..
den went to tis web..got a shocked..
so happy can???hehe..so sweet..
h.u.i...vat's up la..not meeting me later ar?
vateva..
okok..nothing much le..
gotta wait for tat fwen of mine to wake up..den call me..
den go get the stuffs frm her...n hopefully can teach me abit.
den i dun hav to worry for my maths le.
haiz......hurry finish exams can?
last one last one..
okok..brb..maybe get sum rest 1st.


Friday, November 07, 2003

here i am online..n there's no one online....damn...
so sianz.
o well..my day today???
hmmm..
well....din slp well again..
tis time is duno wat show on ch8 la..
tink at least 4 den i slp..
den kaoz...
fone ring....damn....mus wake up le.
haha..
thanks hong han...for waking me up.
yea yea...
so how's ur chinese paper?...aiyah...e most only will get a a2 nia rite???
hehe..kiddin la..
besides over le..u cant kill me now?
hahahahha....
den i took my time knowing tat i'm going to sch by cab ma.
wahahhaa.
ya..studied abit at home.
den made my way to sch.
fare was 14plus..gosh..there goes my money.
den ya..went there....everyone so stress studying.
hmm...i felt as thou i'm prepared le.
when i went in the room...
saw the paper..
wa...so easy..
hurry write all i could tink of before i forget..
took out my pencil case....wulala..the smell..
hehehe..
yea..den trying hard to concentrate..
haha...did damn fast....but in pencil la.
scared i forget ma..
all i studied de came out lor..
really wana thank michelle man..so good..
called me n tell me the tips day before..
okok...gotta treat her something..wat can i?
hahhaa..they finish all today lor...haiz.
i still got last one on mon..sianz...
tat one cannot fail oso man.
well...
ya...1st time feel i noe how to do the whole paper man.
wahaha...den later ya...told ppl around me those ans..
coz saw their paper..all blank ma..tell them abit.
wahaa....feel so smart leh.....1st time leh.
always is ppl tell me de lor.
wahahah.
ya...vateva la.
den ya..finish the paper le..called bi..
still on..so went take bus make way to ECP..
ECP leh...
gosh...ya..wif mel too..
ate at mac..but so sad no more bears le la..sorry cuifen..
hehe...den ya...tried to sun tann..
but so damn noisy i wan to slp de lor..
kaoz...but ya..the sun was really too strong le la.
couldnt take it..
hmm...mel so red le..while me? still the same.
haiz..tink no diff la..coz was really not even awhile only lor.
kaoz.....wasted trip again.
hmmm....talked to her awhile....
keep banging her....told her abt seline.....wulala..
ya...she was so jealous..wahaha...pls lor..fact wat..u peanutz.
den ya...was playing tat westlife song.
baby...living without u will tear me apart
when i noe how it could hav been...
but i dun care wat it leads to..
lets make a new start and give love a chance to win...
coz baby i swear...

the voicemails she always sing to me..
gosh....how many yrs ago..
haha....remember sec 1&2...
always put the pager inside sch u pocket..
den the chain hang out....wahahhaa..
vateva...past again.
ya...nothing much la..
everyone...from sat.....ECP is not a nice place to go le.
wahaha...she not working there le la..
so ya..wat's the point rite.
den ya....made them wait..coz she dun wan me to go rite..
keep making me hear her talk...as usual..
ya..bi n mel...sorry made u all wait so long...
haiz....y mus she always lyk tat..
izit coz she saw my fone...tat's y?
when i feel i already..haiz..
vateva la..not gonna tink abt it.
hack.
ya...told mel i wana go find tat thing..
so went suntec..kaoz...everywhere oso dun hav le lor.
haiz..regretted not buying...last time...
now they change it to the retired edition le..
those not for sale kind
kaoz...spoil my plans only...
nvm..i'll find my way la.
yea..den jus walk walk lor.
saw the new nike sports bra....ORANGE LOR..
wa...of course i got buy la.
ya..mel keep looking for her adidas pants.
while me???looking for t-shirts..
haiz...coz i choosy ma.
mus collar high high de...den tis tat...so ya..
din buy in the end.
mel jus gotta go in topshop..
n i saw tat shirt i liked again..haiz..so mei lor..
its PINK...i wan can..
kaoz..they very smart..noe i wan they increase the price.
kaoz....63 now lor.
haiz...forget it la..noe i wun buy de..hope i dun regret..
ya..spent alot today..i find la...
went to citylink the new flash&splash...
when me n mel stepped in..
we jus said together...
wa lau....wat's the diff man...
haha...but i like the 2 rip curl t-shirt on display...so mei..
haiz...now i wan so many things can..
so u can imagine how long i nv go shopping le...
so ya..
jus walked walked..din noe where to go la..so damn sianz.
haiz...vateva..
showed mel tat swatch watch...she like i like..oso..
hahahaa....i wan...
went raffles....took perfume....AGAIN..
kk...i'm crazy la..fine ppl...
nothing much oso la...in the end..decided to go pw...
vat rite?
ya..played pool....zillion yrs since i played i find..
den me n mel giving the excuse..aiya..we busy studying ma.
if not is every sat will play de rite?
hmm..tinking,....tml i will be going pw again too..
but i dun mind the starbucks la..so cool...
jus love studying there.
yea....
was tinking wat to eat...decided to eat at pasta mania..
kaoz...my money all gone le lor...
sianz sianz...
after tat no where else to go le..
told mel ytd was such a "feng fu" day...
coz i saw so many ppl...so tinking...today wun..
den gosh..jus guess who i saw hui....
hahahha....serene cheongcan???
gosh...den she so cute....jus took her pic wif me..
gave me her num....haha...eric will be so jealous...
wahahhaa...tat day was jus talking abt her rite hui???
hmm..she still not tat bad la...
ytd seline...today serene....
shar...y all ur gang de....
dun tell me tml i will c ANDREA.....eeee...i dun wan hor..
wahahhaha...i rather tannia....hehe....hebe wor..
ya..nothin le la...
din wana go home so early...so mel said go bedok pasa malam..
so we took 31 there..
was tinking of......aaahem...
ya...whole day me n mel keep msgin...wahahhaa...
funny ar..
haiz..so many ppl...so lazy to walk there...
saw my jersey...gosh..all really so nice lor..
shall i get the real madrid blue or white de?
plus i wan the england one too...
i wan i wan....but all too big la.
but e person said tml will hav small size de..
gosh..i wan i wan....tml MUST GO...
anyone?????
yea yea...
suddenly feel my face bit hot le.
haiz..but tml got no diff le la.
yea yea..decided to go home le..
ya...now rotting lor..
room's in a total mess..
tian ar..
tml....go where? fwen haven contact me yet wor.
haiz..
vateva..
hui finally did her blog..wahahhaa..ya..
aiyah..u write rubbish de la...sianz of u..
wahahhaa....ya..
oh oh oh..when we were talking abt hui rite..
den suddenly she msg me lor...wahaha.
so jiao rite mel????
hmmm....tried to ren today...
but couldnt....called her but kena bang...din wana talk to me.
nvm...
ok la..tat's my day for today..
am missin u so much..


decided to take a rest frm my tiring studies..
wahahhaa..
ya...still gotta use my hands...so lei le lor.
vateva..
o well....
today....jus as expected i got woken up....
by ya....n those hammer hitting metal downstairs..
damn it lor...kaoz..
at lyk so early...i still wan to slp can???
as usual....slack at home..
waiting for hui's call n jojo's call...
hmm....mel called....ya...ytd ask u u dun wan...
den morning...wake me up...ya...
but in the end i forgot to call her back..
oopz...so ya...tink she got her own plans le ba.
den ya..
hui finally called...kaoz...take zillion yrs to wake up..
but ya...met her at pw..
kaoz..on my way there....saw tat sam chin....eeee..
the one tat thinks she can steal shar frm me last time..
gosh....pls lor..take a look at urself la...fat ass...
wahahhaa..
ya...i was on md...but i could keep hearing her mentioning shar's name..
aiyah...vateva la...as thou i care...haha..
jus pretend i din hear...coz i really dun wana noe..
wahahaha.....hui was late...vat the hell..
n den we were talking abt her 21..
n true enuff...when i jus sat to ahem..
i saw her lor..haha...hurry called hui...
couldnt say out her name...coz she expected i'll call hui..
but i jus said 21..hahahhaa..
so ya...she was wif athena fu la..
ya...but stup hui take so long..
by the time she came...she couldnt c..
the one who told her she worships the floor..
wahahahhahaa.....sorry hui..
ya...den walked in to pw..
gosh....so many things changed can?????
aiyo...cant believed it...
all my childhood memories all gone...
haiz..so sad...my tong nian..
den all my sec sch times at pw oso...
haiz...so why nian...haha..dun spell la.
ya...
den decided to go yoshi to study..
there so cold lor...
wa kaoz..saw yiling...
oh oh oh...most important part....
b4 we went there...
wanted to go get my money frm cold storage...4d.
den ya..going in rite..
i saw seline can????she's so damn chio lor...
wa...really...she said hi to me....den msg too..
hehe..

vateva...den i was telling hui...hui was also scanning lyk hell la....
keep saying so pretty too..hope she doesnt hear tat...hehe
wa kaoz....i was telling her.....
if u look at seline....den wat is sharline man......
hahhahaa......peanutz..
hmmm...wwateva la..their gang oso not gang le....so sad rite.
haiz...vateva..
ya...den went to study...really waiting to study..
got la...abit..
but was super cold...went ahem..alone...den there got god..
wana be pray abit for my results n all tat.
den ya..
hmmm....they were playing very very nice songs lor..
gosh....den hui say wat song..really come out...the more than words..
den i tinking....ya..
in the end..when i decided to eat le rite..
eating halfway....my song came..
gosh..i jus jumped up..
told hui i'll ren...but is fated i shld not ren le.
hhehehee...so ya..
n was happy abt tat answer..
wahahhahaa.
yea yea..den msg msg lor.
saw michelle ang...so happen she ate alone..
so jus talked to her abit.
got a shocked can..
she's so boy crazy now go wif a bung.
gosh...tis one is really cannot believe de.
den i tinking...her group..
den will winnie ever too?????gosh...
vateva la..
not my prob now le la.
hmm...hui wanted go toilet..
went the mph de..
n saw sum sac-ian..wahahhahaa..
n guess who i saw...tis short F4 kinda hair.
wahahhaa.....hong han..
wahahhaa.
ya...den gave her a shocked thru the mirror..
talked to her awhile...
den left n went to study at starbucks..
the new one..was quite ok..
finally trying to study le.
coz scared the sky change n den no lights there le.
was so shuang there...
hmm...guess i really cant study wif music on..
hmm....suddenly tis small figure appear in front of me...
wa..no sound de leh..its han..she gave me a shocked..
jus now me now her...funny ar.
ya...
ya...den lyk tat lor...
all the way...den suddenly...
told hui i wana go get some perfume..
den was msging half-way..
came back happily smelling the perfume..
someone shouted out my full name...got a shocked can?????
ya....
nothing much le la.
hui's probably still at the beach wif her fwen..
she cant c tis...
wahahhaa.....hui...u go beach....baywatch ar???
wahahaha....so tell me abt j..j...ja...ja...jaded...ya?
hehe...talk pls...
got wat i mean?yea...i noe u can de...
u anyone oso can...tao tao bu jue....hehe.
so no prob la..thou shy abit....but who cares rite.
my sake la....kk???
yeap yeap..
tml's test..haiz....hope it really comes out all tat i studied for man.
den ya...
hmm...vateva la..duno wat's plan for tml lor...sianz.


Wednesday, November 05, 2003

everyone's waiting for me to blog?
wahahhaa.
o well..
woke up tried to study...but cant get anything...
gave up on tat le...
today....terrible day..
got up...damn hungry since last nite.
got mum eat lunch wif me..
den..suddenly dad appear wif grandma.
eee...ergh..cant stand her...keep nagging.
ya...hmm..dad told her tat day i screamed back at him..
scold me again..i sianz.
but she still gave me 100bucks.
wahahaha...cool..
on top of tat...
i won big sweep....haha..again...
yea....another cool 80bucks....
how cool..
damn today shld hav gone buy soccer.
can watch arsenal today....
but i nv buy..haiz
yea...den slacked abit..till its time go sch.
wanted go early..but the damn bus..
so ya...still was bit late.
kaoz...the exam hall so far....
suddenly heavy rain..
all wet..kaoz..
talking abt it..when its about to dry le rite...
i got drenched again....vat the hell...
ya..
exam..haiz...dun talk abt it..
pissed me off....all i studied de din come out..
well din really study la.
wahahaa.
but ya...its damn hard for the whole gang of us.
totally noe nutz..so ya.
gonna fail...confirm..dun tink can even take sub paper..
wahahhaa.
bi...next sem i join u in tis class le.
haiz...ya..lyk tat la.
hope everyone do badly..so can moderate abit.
den hope can pass lor.
yea...nothing much le la.
made my way home...kaoz..no one eat dinner wif me.
went downstairs ta bao.
dad was there...give me a shocked..heng i wasnt...ahem..
ya..
den ya...
got home....ate n all tat..
dad made mum cry again.
haiz...poor mum....feel so poor thing for her..
haiz..i duno wat to do oso.
haiz..cant help oso..
fuck it la...my dad's a pain in the ass.
cant get it in his damn head.
i HATE U.
haiz....vateva la.
ya..nothing le la..
life simply sux..
cant wait till its mon...when everything's finally over.
ya..
bi said fri go sun-tanning..
so mean..i gotta bring all my stuffs frm sch to sun-tan?
so sala..
hmm...aiyah...i sure onz de la.
wahaa...provided there's sun.
wahahaha.
ya..
k la...tml?...duno la...rest..study..
for fri's paper lor....
am so sianz now..
haiz..vateva la.



vote
hey peps..
gosh...the thing tat i was waiting for come out le.
hurry go c..
and vote..the drag for the day.....
gosh..'she' really look so damn different lor...
'she' so shuai in person..
i mean the gay can????
neway....vote for contestant 7....
yes..pls..
must ar.
they so ke ai together..
so ya.
hehehee...yea yea babey..
n mel....tian ar..ur val is inside de pics rite..
u go c carefully...wahahhaha..
her face so red...
neway...
cant get to slp.
cant study too..
so online for awhile more.
wonder if i wake up tml..
yea yea..
nothing much...jus came here to do the herstory thing...
yea...so hungry now.
haiz.
got another disease frm hui..
"vat"...


feel so dumb now....
n so pai say oso..
feel lyk jus deleting tis whole damn blog..
hmm.....so pai say...
but really...
there's only one word i can say now.....
SORRY
really really sorry la..
dun wana write le..
pardon me guys...
sorry sorry...
really....sorry...feel lyk an idiot now.
really lor...feel so stupid so dumb..
for all these...haiz...
geez....
wateva it is.....jus let time tell alright...
i'm sorry i thot it was u..
i'm real sorry.....
suddenly it came to me tat i shld not be so mean to u..
sorry...***....u noe who u r...


Tuesday, November 04, 2003

(All I want is you) Come over here baby.
(All I want is you) You make me go crazy.
(All I want is you) Now baby don't be shy, you better cross the line.
I'm gonna love you right, All I want is you!


I want you to know you could be the one for me. (Yes, you could.)
You've got all I'm looking for; you've got personality.
I know, you know, I'm gonna give more.
But girl you know, I never felt this way before.
So, ANGEL won't you come?
Won't you come and open the door? Listen to me…

Chorus
Come on over, c'mon over, baby. [X4] Come on over…
Now baby don't be shy, you better cross the line.
I'm gonna love you right…I.I. I…All I want is you!

[X2]
(All I want is you) (All I want is you) You make me go crazy.
(All I want is you) Now baby don't be shy, you better cross the line.
I'm gonna love you right, Cause all I want is you!

my dae...was so frickle today..
duno how to say..
went to sch wif such a heavy load.
din study....din hav a good rest..
but still went to sch lyk tat.
the exam was quite easy..
but i guess i will fail..
haiz..regretted not studying..
for tml's exam..
i noe i surely cant make it..
so not planning to study..since i dun hav the mood too..
hmmm..den ya..
went to look....
my 1st time..
hehe..ya..the feeling was so damn different.
but ya..she caught me.
ya..nothing much..
said my heart out..
but i was not appreciated..
it jus torn lyk tat.
on my way home...thot so much..
felt lyk crying i tell u..
but in the end....her msg..jus made my day..
things got better i guess???
or am i tinking one sided????
yea..
nothing le..shar keep calling..
hmm..
ya...
at home..tat msg...jus made me so happy.
keep planing tis n tat..
i wonder if it will work.
well..wateva la...
trying my best to study hard now..
not to let her down.
but i noe i surely cant make it for tml's paper de..
haiz..wateva la..
talked to hui abit..
hehe..she keep thinking i'm ya....
wahahahhaha.
hmm....nothing le...going back to my lala land...
to plan...to fantasize...
how wonderful it can be..
do u noe...its only u...tat can make me feel tis way?????
i wish u noe..
thanks my fwens for making me feel better..
brb...


fuck it la..
so angry i dun wan to do it le.
hack abt the timing la.
ya..
nothing much.
so sianz.
no mood la..
haiz..
shar called again..
but ya..
i wan ur msg..
not her call...
u get me?
hmmm.......wateva....


ok izit done?
hmm...hope its done


done le wat


j.....j....ja


aiyo...so fed-up..
cant get the timin part correct..
give up le la.
wateva.
was on the fone wif cheryl n hui..
they keep saying my j...j...ja..ja..jaded....
wahahha.
ya...wrote a testimonial for cheryl on friendster.
we 2 laugh lyk hell..
hmm....shld go back n write more..
but ya..
gotta be careful..coz she will write all my chou shi out de..
so "ji chou" de..
wahahaha...
aiyo...
ya...shar jus called again...
haiz....wateva la..
not waitin for tat..
she nv reply me le..
haiz...wateva den...
oh oh...mus change my ytd's entry..
if not hui will give comment.
ya..in the end...last min liverpool went in another goal..
so i won..
wahahhaa...den ytd got other 2..
i won 1 only.
so altogether i won 2 out of 3 tat i bought..
not bad huh???
hehe....wana share wif me????
hehehe....yea yea...i'll be waiting for u...


trying again...


hahahaha......
trying the time....
again.....until i can get it


hey hey....still cant....


hey...testing the time part....
haiz......


here i am online now..
so early..no one much to talk to..
haiz...so sianz..
din hav a nice slp last nite..
duno wat was i tinking abt oso..
simply jus cant slp..
oh wateva...den ya...
woke up early in the morning...
did smthing den went back to slp..
yea...while waiting fell aslp again..
finally woke up at lyk 1...
hmmm....
jus now shar called....talked awhile...
tat idiot.....
u noe....i oso dun wana be unfair to u..
i'm confused...
i jus cant believe myself tat..
i've been loving her for so many yrs le..
n u jus came...making me forget her so easily..
i duno wat do u hold inside tat caught me..
i believe things are not tat easy..
therefore it makes me think..
i wish to tell u....u can mean more than shar to me..
n can u guys believe it?????
lyk harlow??? more then shar leh????
u super must be so damn honoured lor..
haha...k nvm..love cant be compared..
duno la...
i'm waiting for ur msg....hehe..
tml is my exam..
lyk wat the....so fast...
but ya la..i studied already..
today can slack abit..
neway got nothing to do at home....jus rot lor...
wahahhaha..
hmmm...shldnt be tinking too much rite?????
hehe...k la...shld be going le...
get some food to eat....
join me...anyone???


Monday, November 03, 2003

PURPLE*
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.

tis is so damn true..
haiz...i need to talk now.....
someone.....can u feel my tears?
read on...
u will noe wat happen...
i say i'm hurt...i very poor thing..
yet others say she'd be worst den me..
she got far more to tink of then me.
n if i were to put myself into hers.
yes i do feel something....something i wish i could do for her.
but as for me...its jus gonna make things worst.
FUCKING HELL..its not jus a crush ok....
i dare admit i noe how to like someone....
maybe love is too a strong word..
but i dare say...i'm falling in LOVE wif u...
even if u shooo me away...i dun care..
i dun care if u tink i'm crazy,..
it doesnt matter if it turns out bad..
i got FEARS of losing u...
but u cant lose wat u never had....
if u tink i will not be a good person..
n therefore u decide not to choose me.
i promise i wun blame u..
thou its killing me every nite....
jus tinking abt us...
i'll wait...
till the day u wana accept me...
till the day u say u dun wan be wif me........
i hate the word "fren"
to hell wif it.


damn...ergh....
gosh..
was at home rotting..
hmm....mel called..
talked to her awhile.
well...ya..
den i did smthing so damn wrong..
seriously i really regret..
shldnt hav..
i din noe tat will hurt u lyk tat.
i'm real sorry..
u din giv me a chance to explain..
till now....its so hard to reach u...
come on....jus let me explain.
i hav so much to tell u abt..
i was wrong....i'm really wrong..
i noe u will read tis..
pls...jus let me explain tis once...
u must hav changed ur impression of me.
but there's no way i could take back the words..
i duno really wat to do now..
but all i believe now is to prove it to u....
n yes i will...
really.....pls believe me....tis time
things got so bad enuff already...
still went to meet my mum..
on the way....she called n said dad is here..
damn...knew something was wrong.
fuck it..
he made me got down the bus..
picked me up frm there..
n once i got in...
he started screaming lyk nobody's business..
lyk wat the fuck lor..
was lyk "ren" n "ren" den bloody hell..
he say until too much le lor.
all these is i use my own money buy de k.
fuck it la...
so wat if ppl buy things for me..
cannot izit? fuck u la..
was so damn angry..
suddenly my hand jus touched the handle of the door..
n next thing...i jus slapped the door n left in the middle of the junction..
fuck him la..
so jus continued walked..
frm parkway there.....all the way to katong..
mum ran after me...she got down too..
coz cant stand him scream n scream..
pls lor...i hav enuff problems already..
stop adding to my probs ok???
fuck u la...MONEY very big ar..
dun take money for u la..
wateva fuck la..
so pissed off now still...
ya..fuck it la..
am really lyk so fucking hell worried....pissed..
n all tat..
yet he gotta make things worst for me..
jus knew it...once a problem comes.....all start coming..
n jus when my exam happen to be tml.
haiz..wateva la..
erghhhhhhhhh..............
he better not come home today n start screaming at me i tell u..
koaz....i gotta slp n go for my exam the next day ok...


later den say


ok..lets c...if now can not..
hmm.
ya nothing to do now la.
no mood..
shar jus called....
talked awhile la..
haiz.....wateva la..
decided to let go.....
i dun wan to be unfair to u too....
nothing much..
waiting for ur msg now..
not replying...haiz.


still trying.....
sianz


Sunday, November 02, 2003

wahahaha..
today break record sia....over 50 plus le..
my fan club..
o wateva la....maybe there hav been intrudas coming in..
wateva fuck..
hmm..
am not gonna tink so much..
jus wondering...
do u noe i'm good to u????
or izit tat i'm too good...
ure used to it..
haiz...
ya...nvm la....its not tat impt....
lyk wat i said....i dun care how u feel for me..
wat matters the most is wat i feel...towards u..
alright..
i shld be slping soon...
am quite tired le..
took a nap jus now..
mind wasnt tat right...not thinking st8..
if i said some.......words..
pardon me ya???
nvm...i'm sure u noe how i so feel now..
coz...yes i noe u do..
jus act dumb ya???
okok..
thanks hui for the tag...
yea yea....
j...j...j....ja..ja...ja..jaded...
hehehehe...
yea...thanks for always listening to me...oh my tian oh my tian.
she's online n offline le..
she msg me...she nv reply me le.
wahahhahaha..
thanks ya...
ok..nothing much le.
got ready for my tue exam le...
i'm jus such a genius..
wahahaa...
o well...got results of the match le.
haiz..lost...
shld hav bought draw...DAMN DAMN..
wateva fuck la...still got 2 more hope...
hehehee..


my auntie went home le....came only 3days..
thank god..
but ya...am so fucking moody now.
no mood to study at all..
saw smthing i din wana c again....
haiz....
my angel broke my heart...
will u mend it back for me???
u duno tat jus a little thing u do..
can affect me lyk tat.
haiz..i duno la...
tinkin of all those...
maybe we cant be....
or wateva la..
wif wat i hav now...
lorraine...u shld be contented wif wat u had..
haiz...gotta keep telling myself tat.
haiz...wat izit tat's making me feel tis wae now???
pls save me frm tis misery.
maybe i'm not happy..
or maybe i am...
haiz...
in times lyk tis....
life is lyk "WAT THE FUCK"
gimme somemore happy moments wun u?????
so tat i can cover up those sad times lyk tis...
haiz...

to "TAT" person who duno how to spell her name..
o....pls la..
i'm not affected by ur words ok...
if u tink i am...so sad its not....
can u jus fuck off....fuck it..out of my way...


chou si..
i noe its u all la..
wat the fuck..
hmm....pls lor..dun be a wet blanket can?
hmm..u all noe how i ya....over her rite...
aiyah...u all my fwens wuld noe de ma..
but if u not my fwens....den i hav nothing to say lor..
kaoz...
dun act as thou u all noe me damn well lor..
if dun...den dun add things in k...
oh....hui jus called...
wa lau.....j...j....j...de....wahahaha..
hmmm.....wateva la..
i got fwens tat love me......
i got ppl tat care for me....rite? do i?
hehehe....life's jus tis great..
o....
ya...
ytd was online...talking to ko too..
hehe...we talk alot of crap lor..wif bi too..
so fun...next time we mus go out more often k...
hehe..
ya..offline...watched abit of soccer since cheryl said she bought..
wahahha..ya...was draw...nil nil..
i shld hav bought too...
hmm...regret lyk hell.....esp the real madrid de....
shld hav guess its 3goals..
haiz..wateva la...
hope today can win all...hehehehee..
yea..
oh...den hui suddenly called....ask to WTM wif them at 7am..
kaoz..in the end they drag until 10 plus.
hahaha...
got morning msg...hehe...ya...kept me going..
but ya...fell aslp somehow while waiting..
den i was late...jojo cheryl and hui all there le...
ya...den proceed to there to eat..
walked all the way back to bedok inter..
they say my fone keep...ya.
den they all noe who izit lor..
den say out the name...
wahahhaa..i pai say la..
but ya...
wahahaha...so happy....
miracle...wahahaa....
ya...hmm...msg msg..
ya...suddenly someone called..
give me a shocked..coz was using 6510....
so ya...din hav the caller group ting..
its shar.....so early in the morning..
hmm...ya...jus talked awhile la..
say she'll call back later..
ya..nothing le llor..
went ntuc walk walk..
bought soccer..
den was telling hui....hahahhaha...
so now she join my fan club le..
wahahaha.....
all the rAyNe'S iN e wOrLd uNiTe...hehehehe..
yea yea..
tat's abt it folks...
to whom it may concern..
i dun care wat others say...
so long as u noe....
i'm glad already.....
am very contented wif wat i hav now....really...
u brighten up my dae....


hahahhahaa..
i managed to talk tat topic..
o well..it jus so happen only la..
but its lyk...
finally....she's not shy n all....
maybe she's forcing herself to open up to me..
hey....i wan u to jus be urself....
dun hav to go the way i do...
ok????
hmm...dun even noe if she'll read tis..
tat poor girl got no internet at her hse u c.....
hmm...
well....life's getting better each day...
but gotta wait..
the waiting part is killing me...
besides there r so many others to consider..
argh...tell me wat to do...
i wish to be 24/7...
haiz...but i CANNOT DEPEND on u...
but its hard..
last time to others is quite possible..
but now...i really cant..
coz i'm too used to u..
haiz.....
do u noe its u??????
hmm...
k...back.
i'm so hungry now..
hmmm...feel lyk deleting all my fotos in my fone..
coz ya..
duno la....when i add up more den i delete ba..
well....today at home...
was lyk thot i'll rot..
but hui sent me tis thing...den can play play all.
the fone....can edit ringtones all...
hehe..so cool can??
ya..
b4 tat..
was studying my OOAD..
i swear i really was...
n i cant believe tat i finished so fast lor..
hahaa.....can pass de la..
yea yea...anything u say my baby....
o well...
ya...so one subject off to study from..
yea yea...left 3 more.
ya..
wat else..
oh....was busy doing my things already..
den msg..
den sharline KOH...keep calling..
aiyo..ya..den jus talk talk..
but keep hanging on her...coz i was busy msging..
wahahhaaa..
ya...nothing much la.
can u guys feel....
i more n more.....towards shar now???
duno...maybe i'm realising it too..
hehe....can u c wat a great impact u r to my life????
my fwens shld noe....
hui...lyk FINALLY RITE...someone can????
tat bus num????
ya..
aiyah.....BUT U DUNO U EXIST....
wahahhaa..
i was waiting for her msg..
dun even noe if she really will.
but i heard tat tone jus for her de.
n its her....wahaahhaa...
*bounce bounce*....
wahhahahahahahhahaa.....
k..
busy now



Saturday, November 01, 2003

eee....i give up le la..
been trying to change tis thing in my blog..
but in the end..
kaoz..the thing jus cant appear..
fuck it la.
o well...i'm confused now...
really....so damn confused...



i look at u....looking at me...
now i noe y they say the best things are free....
gonna love u till the end of time..
angel of mine...
nothing means more to me than what we share..
no one in this world can ever compare...
last nite the way we touch is still on my mind...
angel of mine..
i never knew i could feel each moment...
coz every breath i take
above they all meant...
i wana share it wif u...


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I will never forget the days we once had...The days when u were everything to me...My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever...But now i realised that was all a big dream...The feelings i have for u will never go...I wish i could take back that one regretful day..The day when i willingly let you slide from my arms...Never did i think of the astonishing pain of regrets....That once i would have to live through...The sight of u in someone else's arms makes my heart shatter into million pieces...I sometimes wonder if u still think of me....Or if to u..i'm jus a face in the crowd...I wish so very much that one day we could hav it all back...But for now, I'll sit here silently.....Remembering all the memories we once shared...Everyday my love grows much stronger...Hoping that one day you will feel the same....AND put BACK the pieces of my BROKEN heart....06/05...

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Can we go back to the days our love was strong...Can u tell me how a perfect love goes wrong.....Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way it used to be....Oh god give me a reason...i'm down on bended knees..

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